The girl with secrets

Eight

"i don't want you to go" he tells me

i look up at jordan and he has a look on his face that i can't describe, "i'm not going anywhere"

He pulls away from me and looks me in the eyes

"you promise?" he asks

Now it's my turn to well up.

I look at Jordan and my mom is stood behind him and I give her a look. She's about to say something but i start, "thats out of my control and you know that. I would never chose to leave any of you"

"come on Emily and Oscar, time for bed" my mom says

I stand up and turn away from jordan and the boys. I wipe away the tears in my eyes before turning to look at them.

"So what's going on here?" i ask

"nothing" Ace tells us

"what was that about?" Issac asks

"Nothing" i say

"Sure" Ryder says sarcastically

I look at Finn he's trying to figure out what went on there. He has a very confused look over his face and it's making me very uncomfortable.

"right I'm off" i say

I make my way into the living room and pick up a scrap book.

Every year on my birthday Izzy would fly over to see me in california and we'd go on a road trip around the city to different places.

It was so much fun.

I am currently looking through one from four years ago. That was a year before i got sick. We went to the beach.

Izzy somehow convinced me to go cliff diving, it was the best and scariest thing over ever done. I screamed so much i nearly weed.

"Rapunzel?" Flynn asks me from the doorway

"yeah"

"where's the toilet" he asks me

"down the hall and on the right" i tell him

"what are you doing?" he asks me

"looking through a scrap book" i say

"the ones you made with Izzy?" he asks

"yeah how did you know?" i ask

"izzy has the same one, well had" he says

Before i know it hes sat next to me looking at the photos.

"i miss her" he tells me

"so do i" i say

"yeah why didn't you visit?" he asks

"when?" i ask

"when she turned sixteen?" he asks

Well Flynn i was in hospital.

"i was busy" i say

"your lying" he tells me

"no i'm not" i say getting annoyed

"you didn't even care about her" he says

I look at him gobsmacked "you've got to be kidding me! she was my best friend!" i say raising my voice

"well you didn't even act like it!" he tells me

"what are you on about?!" i shout

"you didn't even turn up to her funeral!" he shouts at me

I'm crying now.

"You don't think i wanted to!" i shout

We are both so angry we didn't even see that room is now filled with everyone else in the house.

"it doesn't seem like it!" he shouts

"I wanted to Finley! I wanted to go with everything! I fucking loved your sister! For you to even suggest that i didn't care about her-"

"Why then! Holly? What was so important you couldn't even show your face!" he shouts

"I was dying Finley!" I shout. I take a deep breath before speaking calmly, "I have cancer"