Fated

Ch. 44

'What happened?' Zain looked at me briefly before starting the car as we left for my birthday getaway the next day.

'Papa saw you yesterday' I informed him as we got inside the car and he started driving.

'Did he say anything?' He asked me.

'No, he just said that when you're coming to stay bring Zain with you' I told him and he smiled.

'I agree' He yawned.

'You look tired, did you sleep at all?' I asked him.

'I am fine' He said to reassure me, I was about to ask him to let me drive when his phone rang.

'Yes...okay great, thanks...yes a week...call me if anything urgent comes up...okay, bye' He said to someone over the phone and ended the call.

'Everything okay?' I asked.

'Yeah, I couldn't get a hold of Salman, he just got back from his vacation this morning, I wanted him to attend some meetings on my behalf while I am gone' He commented.

'Oh okay...but you said something about a week' I asked him, confirming if I heard him correctly.

'Yes' He nodded.

'You're taking a week off?' I stared at him. He hardly took time off from work.

'No, we both are' He smiled at me, waiting to see what I'll say next.

'Both of us? Where exactly are we going Zain?' I asked him but he didn't answer my question, instead he drove us to the airport and the next I thing I know, we were in a different city with luggage that he and Anum packed for us while I was at my parents and we were on our way to a resort by the mountains.

'Zain come look' I called out his name from the balcony after we entered the room. He came outside after ordering room service to bring us some food. The sun was setting behind the mountains and the air was so fresh that I felt I was breathing in the clouds.

'I thought a day was going to be too short for this, what do you think?' He linked his arm around my waist, pulling me closer to him.

'You were right, this is so beautiful Zain...thank you' I rested my head on his shoulder, feeling the warmth of his skin against mine in the cold weather.

'We should have done this sooner, I got so busy with Anum and Zeeshan's wedding planning that I didn't realize that I haven't even take you out on a proper honeymoon' His told me.

'It's okay, even if had come on our honeymoon, we wouldn't have enjoyed it if Anum was worried...you did the right thing' I said to him, pulling away from his slightly when I saw him pinching his eyes closed. He seemed really tired.

'You need to sleep Zain, I know you didn't sleep last night and then you drove all the way here from the airport...let's go inside' I grabbed his hand and took him inside with me.

'Sleep' I made him sit on the bed and just then the resort staff arrived with our food. I set the food on the table and prepared a plate for him as he sat on the bed watching me, with a hint of smile that started to appear on his face.

'What are you smiling about mister?' I smirked at him and passed the plate to him.

'Let's eat from the same plate' He stopped me from leaving. Sometimes the things he said to me reminded me of a little boy, he didn't ask for big things, he just wanted to feel loved and he was loved.

'Okay, you are such a romantic you know that' I teased him, pulling his cheek.

'You're wearing the necklace' He pointed at the necklace that he gave me last night when he visited me.

'You just noticed? I wore it as soon as you left...it's really nice' I touched the necklace.

'I can't live without you' I heard him say and I looked up at him. I smiled and somehow even after marriage, when he said those things to me, I felt shy.

'After a long time, I can finally sleep peacefully as long as you are close to me' He admitted.

'I am close to you, always...know that I am always with you' I covered my hand over his.

'It's strange' He said. I waited for him.

'I always thought that when a man is afraid, he lies but with you...even when I am scared to share my fears with you sometimes, after I talk to you, I don't feel scared anymore...sometimes I think that my love is intense and too selfish for you, sometimes I have to convince myself time after time that your life doesn't belong to just me, it belongs to other people too...yesterday when you texted me that you'll be staying at your parents, I felt...I felt protective and then when you said my name after you realized that maybe I am upset, I felt horrible for putting you in a position to choose between me and the rest of the people who love you...I mean sometimes I take my parents out and Anum outside for her wedding shopping but you don't mind that all...in fact you encourage it...then why do I feel this way...I don't even know where I am going with this...I just...I want you to know that I am trying...and I won't fail you...and I want ...'I couldn't help it, before he could finish, I moved forward and kissed him softly on the lips.

Without pulling away, he grabbed the plate from my hands and put it down on the ground. The way he kissed me felt as if heat was rushing through my veins. We couldn't get enough of each other, even though he was tired and sleepy, the way he held me down on the bed pushed me over on edge was uncontrollable. As if our heart was beating on the same rhythm and so were our bodies, it no longer felt as if he and I were two separate beings.

'Don't look at me like that' I pulled the sheets up to hide my face from him.

'How am I looking at you?' He pulled the sheets down, grinning at me.

'You were not so shy a while ago' He poked fun of me and my mouth dropped.

'When you don't say anything, you eyes start talking...let see what they are saying' He moved a little closer to me to look at me directly. The longer I looked at him, the more I felt the urge to connect my lips with his again.

'So what are they saying' Instead of answering, he grinned down on me.

'I think your eyes are telling me to do this' He closed the few inches between us and kissed me again. I wanted to preserve this moment, it was glorious, this time of our lives when we only had each other and there was no one but us. I was consumed and lost. I was irrevocably in love with him so much that with him, I didn't mind giving up controlling and coherence. He was heartbreaking, beautiful and passionate and his love sometimes felt like I was inside an exploding star, but despite all of that, he was mine, he belonged to me. I felt a sense of belonging with him, a feeling of togetherness, an emotion which became the centerpiece of my life. 

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