Shivika: Will love blossom again?

41. The untold love

A: I..cann'tt..breathee..

He loosened his grip on her but didn't leave her completely.

S: Anika do you really think I had done everything because of guilt or I pity you? Do you really think I am that kind of person? Can't you understand me Anika?

A: How can I understand you Shivaay? You always gave me hope in my life and then you itself destroyed it brutally. You never behaved the way I wished to. In the past you married me forcefully and used me as an object to protect your family reputation. But what did you do later? You introduced Tia as your wife. When your work is completed you pushed me away like trash. I was a toy for you back then. If you wanted to play with me, you played and when you got bored you pushed me away.

She jerked out of his hold and she was crying by then.

S: Can't you see that old non caring Shivaay Singh Oberoi is dead! This is the real me. I agree I am guilty for all the sins I had committed Anika and yes I need you to forgive me but can't you understand the real me? Are you feeling that I am doing everything for earning forgiveness? Can't you understand our relation? And please don't cry Anika. Your tears are my weakness.

A: But you are the one who always make me cry. And why should I stop crying? I don't even understand why you married me.

He hugged her and she let her pain come out in form of tears. He can understand the turmoil of her heart. She had understood everything in a wrong way and he has to erase this misconception of hers.

S: Do you want to know why I married you?

Anika gave a small nod and he made her sit on the couch. Kneeling in front of her, he cupped her face and wiped her tears.

S: The reason I married you because I love you! I love you so much Anika!

She couldn't actually believe that he had confessed his love. She even thought it was she was dreaming.

S: Anika yeh sach hai and I love you so much! And from all these years, I had only loved you and not even thought of any other. Anika I know my behavior in past is still haunting you and you are in a confusion to believe me or not. But please Anika I am saying truth. Trust me. And those ideologies you stated..Naam, khoon, khandaan! I no longer believe in them. You are the only one who wiped away those ideologies from my heart. Please don't think that I let you go in past because of those ideologies.

She was silent and wasn't able to utter a word. There was a mix of confusion and happiness in her eyes. He kissed her forehead and placed her left hand on his heart. He placed his hand above hers.

S: From the past 3 years I was not living Anika. Just breathing. I was also in the same state like you. I am with everyone yet I am lonely. That time I started to live was from the time I saw you again. You can't even explain how happy I was when I married you. You said that I could have talked to that organizer to stop our wedding that day..But how can I do that when I was wishing for a new life with you! Omru ne mujhe kaha tha ki if my love is true none can stop me from being with you and we got married. And the reception party in Mumbai..I organized it because I wanted to show the entire world that Anika is the only one for me..Woh bhi pure tadi ke saath..

Shivaay chuckled slowly at the end. Even a smile formed on Anika's face. She was feeling a strange happiness as he was conveying his feelings. She at this point didn't want him to stop conveying his feelings. She wanted him to open up completely.

S: You know I wanted this confession to be magical and that day I propose you my love to be the best day of your life..But what I understand now is that we don't need pomp and show to express what we feel truly! I am really very sorry for all the deeds I did in past and no longer I will play with your feelings..Tumhari khushi matlab Shivaay Singh Oberoi ki khushi!

She didn't know when she had also knelt down in front of him and pulled him in a tight hug. Somehow she wanted all of him for her completely and he also doesn't want to pull apart from her.

A: Shivaay..I am sorry..I thought..

S: Shh! Try to forget the past and live for the present! I always want to see you happy!

She slowly pulled out and looked at him.

S: And one more thing..I just don't want you to accept my love as a compulsion..This also doesn't mean that you also should have to confess your feelings at this moment..I will be waiting for the day you will confess your feelings! I meant what I said now..

He made her stand and both of them moved to their rooms. All the while she was looking at him. While Anika was at the door step, he called her and she turned to him.

S: I want a promise from you Anika!

Anika gave a slight nod.

S: Confess me your love that day when I win you completely! Will you?

Showing his little finger he asked for a pinky promise. She slowly locked her finger with his. He smiled and kissed her forehead.

S: Get ready to confess your feelings because I promise to win your heart soon!

Without saying a word Anika left to her room, while Shivaay moved to his with a content smile on his face.

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Precap: Mind v/s Heart!

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