Missing You Ms. Lopez

Part 41

*flashback*

Sxhan left me. I know that I've hurt her. I pushed her away from me. I lied to her about my real feelings. Mahal niya ako and I feel the same way. I love her so much to the point that I am sacrificing my all dahil sa ipinangako kong kasal kay Bianca.

Nung una, akala ko hindi na magbabago yung pagtingin ko kay Bianca even when Sxhan came in the picture. Nung mga oras na magkasama kami ni Sxhan, masaya ako. Masayang masaya pero inakala kong dala lang yun sa pagka-miss ko sa kanya. But when I came to Batangas to chase her, di ko na makontrol ang sarili ko nung mga oras na yun. I feel like I wanted to make her mine again. I feel like I wanted to be with her again. Selos na selos ako nung araw na nakita ko silang masayang masayang nag-uusap ni Villaluz. It seems like Villaluz has everything that I should have.

Ramdam ko yung sakit at pait sa mga salitang huli niyang binitawan. Gusto ko siyang habulin at bawiin lahat ng sinabi ko kani-kanina lang pero hindi ko ginawa.

Sa tingin ko nama'y makakabuti para sa aming dalawa ito. Sometimes, two people are meant to meet and fall in love, but not to be with each other forever.

I wiped the tears that continues to drop. Muli akong napatingin sa mga langit wishing for a clue if my decision was right. I stood up from the bench that I was sitting. I slowly stepped my foot while head bowed down and started walking.

"Adrian..." sambit ng isang boses ng lalaki. I looked forward at .....

'B o o o O o g G g g s S s S H h h h h h H !!!'

Ramdam ko ang sakit sa aking mga panga habang ngayo'y nakasalampak sa damuhan.

"Shit!" I mumbled.

"Walang hiya ka Grimson! " Napatingin ako sa lalaking nagpalipad ng kanyang kamao patungo sa aking mga pisngi.

"Villaluz..." I whispered. Galit na galit ang kanyang mga tinging ipinupukol. I don't know what's with him pero isa lang ang nasa isip ko ngayon. Maybe Sxhan called him or maybe he saw Sxhan somewhere.

Sa lahat ng lalaking nakakakilala kay Sxhan, alam kong si Villaluz lang ang mas nakakakilala sa kanya after the accident.

"Hindi mo ba tatanungin kung bakit kita sinugod dito Grimson?" he asked. Pintado sa kanyang mukha ang labis na galit. I grinned at him without answering his question.

'B o O o o o G g g G s S s s H h h h H !!!!!'

"F*ck you Grimson! Alam mo ba na binitawan ko siya, pinalaya ko siya dahil mas pinili ka niya? Dahil alam ko at alam niya na sa lahat ng nangyari, ikaw at ikaw parin ang mahal niya?! How could you hurt her that way!!!" He furiosly said habang madiin na hawak ang aking mga balikat.

"Should I have to thank you for setting her free for me?" Pangungutya kong tanong.

'B o o o g g g g s s h h h h!!'  He whacked me again. I fell on the ground and remained sitting there dahil sa pagkaliyo na aking naramdaman.

"G*ago ka! Kung alam ko lang na ganito ang mangyayari, I should have forbidden her to see you. I should have stopped her from loving you! She was trying so hard to move on from you dahil ayaw niyang makasira ng relasyon but you just suddenly appeared in Batangas para magmakaawa na bumalik siya.
Don't you know how she hardly decided kung babalik ba siya o hindi dahil alam niyang kahit anong oras, babalik na naman ang pagmamahal niya sayo?! She avoided you and your presence but you kept on following her and asking her out while using Princess's name. Tapos ngayon, hindi mo parin ba siya kayang piliin?!"

"I-I can't force myself to l-love her again Villaluz. Alam mo at alam niyong ikakasal na ako kay Bianca bukas and why would I cheat on her?" Pilit kong pagsisinungaling.