Missing You Ms. Lopez

Part 10

(Eeian's POV)

Weeks had passed and the thought still bothers me at lately hindi na ako masyado nakakapag-focus sa work.. Everytime I see her, the fact keep on reminding me that I should tell her the things that I know.

'Ayoko! Ayokong mawala siya sa akin.. Ayokong kamuhian niya ako..'  I insisted it to myself but the other side of me tells me to tell her everything.

"Kung kamuhian man niya ako, I want it to happen because I told her everything kaysa sa iba niya pa malaman."  I firmly told myself.

Pagkauwi ko ng bahay, I saw her waiting for me at the living room.. Seeing her angelic beauty makes me weaker... It makes me think how doubtful I should be as her husband.. but I have to do this... I really need to do this..

I heaved a sigh and composed myself for a while.

"Are you okay bhe? Parang sobrang napagod ka sa trabaho ahh... Umupo ka muna and take a little rest.. Ako na ang maghahanda ng mga pagkain so that we can eat..."  I sat down on the couch and she gave me a peck on my lips tsaka siya umalis papuntang kusina.. The maids helped her prepare the foods on the table ..
  She then returned to me pagkatapos nilang ayusin ang dining table. I stood up still wearing a weary smile at tsaka umupo na sa upuan...

"Queen's hug.... " she suddenly hugged me from the back.

"sana makapawi yan ng pagod mo... " she added. I held her hand, faced her and hugged her back.

"What's bothering you bhe? Napapansin ko kasi, lately parang napakarami mong iniisip.. Minsan nahuhuli pa kitang nakatulala.."  she worriedly said. I just continued to hug her..

"Bhe I'm sorry.... I'm sorry... I'm so sorry.." pinipigilan kong pumatak ang kahit isang butil ng luha mula sa aking mga mata.

"What about it bhe? Mag-uusap tayo pagkatapos kumain .. You need to let it out... All the things that bothers you should be uttered.. Nababahala na kasi ako sa health mo..."  sabi niya at kumalas na sa pag-aakapan namin.

"Tara na, kumain na tayo bhe..." she said. 

Pinatawag na muna namin sa nanny si Princess para makakain na... Maya maya'y dumating narin ang aming unica hija... We eated in silence not until napansin ng anak ko ang pagiging tahimik ko..

"Dad, why are you so quiet? Di po ako sanay ehh.." Princess asked.

"None baby, I'm sorry anak, pagod lang talaga si Daddy..." I answered and smiled at her.

"Okay dad.. Please don't stress yourself too much dad huh... Take a lot of rest daddy... I'll be sad if you'll be sick... I love you daddy..." she said.

"I will princess.. I love you too..."

Princess is a thoughtful girl..
No one would never want her.. She's pretty like her mom.. Her looks, her attitude, the way she act, parang si Queen talaga..
Kahit na alam kong pwedeng mawala sa akin ang dalawang babaeng bumuo sa pagkatao ko, I will still tell her what I hide inside.. Di ko na kayang lokohin pa silang dalawa.. I love them both so much kaya kahit alam ko ang pwedeng patunguhan ng magiging pag-uusap namin ni Queen mamaya, I will still tell her the whole truth... The truth that should be unveiled and the lies that should be stopped..
No backing up..

After eating our dinner, pumanhik na si Princess sa kanyang room together with her nanny. Agad naman akong pumunta sa kwarto namin ni Queen and took a half bath..
My body started to shake again... I feel like my voice will tremble and stutter too whenever I started to admit everything to her...

I can't afford to lose her... to lose them..
but, I can't also afford to live with them longer and until forever with lies hidden. I love them so much to the point that I will sacrifice my happiness with her..
I started this, I should end this as well..
No hideous things are forever hidden.