The 6th member

Chapter12- taking a break

It's been 5 days and I think it's getting worse. I didn't think I was able to have more tears but I guess they keep running down.  I haven't left my room for 5 days straight, my family left a plate with food for me on my door. I told Gabbie to tell them what had happened. They were so sweet. They new I didn't want to talk or to get bothered. They left breakfast in my door, water, morning coffee, snacks, secret desserts my little sister gave me and so on. 
Daniel kept calling me but I eventually blocked him. I didn't blocked him from social media because it would only cause more drama.

Instagram story-
I covered the lens of my phone and started recording.
Y- hey guys, so um *sniff* as you may know I um am in a wrong place in my life right now... so um I want to say that no, I'm not okay but I will eventually. Umm Someone very important in my life broke me into million pieces. I just want you to know that I won't be able to go to the next concerts.... I am so terribly sorry and I will repay you... I'm so terribly sorry about all of this, I'm not sure when I'll come back but I really hope soon... thank you for all the love and support and well bye.  The last sentences I was crying. You could totally tell, just by hearing my voice.
I typed " turn volume on" and uploaded it on my story.

I wanted to die. This feeling is terrible. I started crying out loud. I grabbed a pillow and screamed in it. I cried and cried in it.  I slowly fell asleep while crying. I opened my eyes to see a bunch of notifications of what's app
Dani boo- 450 text 259 missed calls
Zachie H.- 134 texts 24 missed calls
Corbean B- 67 text 32 missed calls
Jo jo M- 12 text 29 missed calls
Noodle jack A-  1 text 49 missed calls

- time skip-
3 weeks. So through out these weeks I've got a little better. Let me be honest, my feelings were crushed and messed up but I learned how to look "happy" I couldn't just bail on why don't we, I had to come back someday. And tomorrow is that day. None of the boys know. Just our manager. I finally got out of my room and started packing.  My phone rang. I wasn't going to answer because I though it was Daniel or one of the boys, when I looked,  it was Gabbie so I answered
Y- hey Gab
G- Hey! So are you ready to leave tomorrow morning?
Y- idk I guess. It's gonna be hard but I guess I'll have to deal with a cheater
G- damn.... okay stick to the plan. Just act your over him... 
Y- yup
G- it's good your much better! Well I have to go lavender Just woke up
Y- okay! Love you gab
G- love ya bye

One thing Gabbie didn't know was that i am still the same. Hurt as hell. But I leaned how not to show it so I guess I'll be fine... right?

I laid in bed and fell asleep instantly.