Polaroids s.m.+ c.c.

chapter four

It's the day Camila promised herself she would visit.

13th September.

Day Shawn's parents died.

She felt pretty nervous to visit their grave and put flowers and clean because she knew Shawn would visit too. That's why he came in first place.

Camila placed sunflowers in stone made vase and took water bottle from her purse and poured it. Sun was shining above, it's still kind of hot, so she watered plant.

Reading their name all over and over again she wished they were never gone because piece of Shawn left with them. That piece belonged to her.

In her right hand she felt small pull and looking down, her eyes watery, she picked small girl up kissing every inch of her face, breathing her in.

She turned around to leave to see Shawn's silhouette in distance, coming closer to her.

She cursed in her mind that she can't escape him. Before she could think of anything else, he is standing in front of her, alone.

"You came?" He asked shocked seeing her here.

"Every year Shawn" she said collecting herself.

His eyes drifted from hers to little girl in her arms, who hugged her tightly hiding in her neck shyly.

Before Shawn asked anything she asked him "where's Amelie?"

"She's in car, I wanted to do this alone"

Camila nodded picking her bag from grass "I will leave you here" but he took her arm carefully saying hearing like a beg "please stay"

"Why do you want that"

His eyes were dull, without life she always looked at and loved.
"I just - please" she nodded and sat down as Shawn placed flowers into one more empty vase and lighted a candle.

"Do you miss them?" Camila asked him. He looked at her, then at little girl hoping it would be hers best friend child.

"I miss them a lot" he sat down opposite of them, little girl played with grass underneath her.

"What's her name?" Shawn asked her. Camila's heart skipping few beats as she tried to stay calm to answer him.
"Kiara not like I more like e" he smiled "that's pretty name"

Camila smiled back feeling Kiara on her chest as sun gave them vitamin D. She looked at Shawn who was always gazing between grave and Camila, then child in her arms.
He analizyed Kiara, she had beautiful hair and brown eyes, chubby cheeks but with small sharp jaw. She was dressed nicely in small yellow dress.

"Camila?" He said her name like a question.

"Humm?" She mumbled not looking at him, playing with Kiara's hair.

"Are you mad at me?"

She gazed at him. His eyes glossy but no tear fell down, he played with ring on his finger, he does that whenever he's nervous about something.

Camila gave him sympathetic smile trying to say something. She is mad on him but she isn't that mad. This walls around her are broken down to express anything right.

"Shawn? Camila?" They turned to Amelie who walked to them worried.

"Hey Amelie" Camila showed her small smile standing up, "I was worried, what took you so long" she hugged Shawn, he put his head into crock of her neck just like Kiara did into Camila's.

"Don't worry" he whispered moving her slightly away, like he remembered Camila's watching them.

"Oh my God Camila - she is beautiful" Amelie looked at little girl in Camila's hands.
"She looks so m-"