Polaroids s.m.+ c.c.

chapter twenty two

Camila's POV;

I breathed out like I've been holding this breath for whole interview as I walked out of office.
It went well, I can guess? Right.

This time it felt so different, I didn't need to worry to find a nanny for my baby, nor if Ariana can be home until I come back.

Interview went smooth, basic questions about my career of working then some personal questions which took me some time to answer.
Of course I told them I had a child, but what took me the most time to answer is of I have a partner; I said no.

I saw no messages from Shawn about Kiara, which means he's taking it easy, caring for her. She's not a lot to take, she's behaving really good, but can be stubborn about some things sometimes, like changing diaper or eating.

"How did it go?" I turned to the male voice, "actually really good" I answered with smile to the Nick, who welcomed me here and guided me to interview. He's working here.

"I'm glad um -" was he nervous?

"Do you want to go for a coffee?"

Okay, he was handsome and really nice looking, tall and dirty blonde hair, but he doesn't know I've daughter waiting for me to come home.

"I'm sorry, I've a daughter - I need to get home to her"

I saw his eyes wider in shame and they drifted to my hands for split seconds, like I saw him breath out.
"Daughter? I bet she looks like you"

I smiled shaking my head, trying to read his face features, he was surprised more like taken back, but now he acted calm.
"Can I at least walk you to your car?"

I nodded because I couldn't fight him, he was so sure with me that I maybe even liked it.

He asked me about my daughter while we walked to car.
What's her name
How old is she
How is she

He opened door for me and I smiled politely thanking him, with goodbyes I drove away.
I don't know what this was, because it felt like it was embarrassing and awkward but it wasn't exactly like that.
Maybe he just wanted to meet me, or actually get into my pants.

Phone call got me out of my thoughts and I saw mum displaying on the screen.
I put her on speaker.
"Hello mama!" I didn't hear from her in a long time.

"Hey baby, how are you?"

"I'm good mama, you?"

"I'm breathing which is good, where's my little angel how is she?" I smiled at her respond and question, she really really loved Kiara.

"She's doing good, she's growing up really fast mama it scares me"

Honestly, it felt like yesterday when I held her as a baby in my arms, feeding her on my chest, now she's walking around like little fluffy bear and can hold her bottle but I don't let her.

"Baby, look at yourself, you grew up so fast, you have a baby on your own"
"Are you driving right now, I hear that noise"

"I am, I'm coming back from job interview, it went pretty well"

"Who's with Sky?" She loved calling her Sky because it reminded her of me when I was a little girl, she told me that I always looked up at the stars, in awe like I had written my own destiny in them.

"Um Sky - she's with nanny" I lied because I can't just tell her that her father is back and I left her alone with him.

Lectures about life and how I should treat him now - I can't listen to that.

"Nanny? You should have called me!"

I snorted "mum you live hours away"

I was home, I parked and got my phone speaking on it now.
"I can risk to spend time with my baby"

"You can't mum, you know your health isn't as functional as before"

"Don't tell me about my health mija"

I unlocked door to apartment to find it empty, but I heard some laughs from the room.
"We're coming next weekend"

"Qué?" I asked in Spanish, my attitude changing in seconds.

"llegamos en dos fines de semana"

"ok mamá, solo avísame cuando exactamente"

So they're coming for two weekends I don't know how to come with a story or anything but that is far away from now.

"Adiós"

We said goodbyes and I sighed leaving my stuff on the table.
"Hey" Shawn walked with smile and it bought heat to my system, I smiled back.

"Was that your mum?"

"How did you know?"

"You always talked with her in Spanish" I smiled as he remembered, every time my mum and I gossiped about him being around it was in Spanish.

"How did the interview go?"

"Well I can tell, results will be in week or so" I walked to Kiara's room to find her falling into slumber next to Aaliyah who read her a story.

"I am pretty sure you will get it" I heard Shawn from behind.
"I hope" I turned around, he was just behind me looking with big smile our angel sleeping peacefully.

I remember how she always struggled to fall asleep, or would wake up three times a night, crying. It was extremely exhausting to her and to me too. I would cry from being sad and tired, carrying her around the house so she could fall asleep.

Now since Shawn is around her.
She sleeps, calmly, doesn't cry too much.
Like her hearts knows that calm place on his chest, like I knew before, that was the only place I could fall asleep at whenever I felt like nothing.

It's like when I lay on top of his chest our hearts would tangle and it was hard to get them away, scared to rip off those strings which attached to our hearts.

I'm sure Kiara has that, Shawn on the way he looks at her, like she's the only one in the world, it looks - like he has it too.

I turned around with glossy eyes and went to kitchen to get something to eat.
"Camila! Camila!" Aaliyah happily called, I turned around and felt two hands wrap around me.

"What happened?" I asked my mouth full of banana, "Kiara called me an aunt!"

I felt my heart skip a beat, what?
"Thank you!" She told me, I looked at Shawn, he still had same smile on his face.

"Why thank me?" I asked her as she happily said "you gave us her, thank you for keeping her" once again she hugged me and now one tear rolled down on my face, I locked eyes with Shawn who looked at me with empathy.

It was written on his face 'im sorry'
Everything was right there between lines on his face, that he's sorry and feels like it is his fault.
It isn't.
I know that.
His forehead was wrinkly with worry and I just gave him smile to make sure everything is alright.

But it didn't feel like it.

I wanted more.

I'm not sure if that is possible.

I wanted more from him.

I want to hear him say to his daughter that he loves her.

I want him to hold me when I can't sleep.

To be here whenever I need him.

I need him so bad.

Every time of the day, I want him here, to hold my hand, that everything is gonna be alright.

To kiss my sorrows away.

I just want my Shawn.

And I don't think I'll get him.

A/n; hiii, this is kind of a filler chapter full of important parts for future of this story.
I'm sorry for slow updates, school is difficult.
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