Avoiding The Player

Eleven

I made my self busy this past few days... I read novels, listen to music, anything that would shift my mind from worrying about my reality.

Di ko naman tinatakbuhan or tinataguan mga problema ko e. I just take a break. Yun lang.

Nakakasawa na kasi. Lagi ko na lanag siya inaalala, lagi nalang iniisip yung feelings mo. Nakakaumay na.

"Katie you're next!" may activity kami ngayon, wala lang pampalipas oras.

Bubunot ka ng random paper sa box, tapos gagawin mo kung anong nakasulat sa paper.

Bumunot na ako at, ibinigay ko na sakanya para basahin niya.

"What song would best describe what you feel right now?" sabi ni Kuya Ernie, ang head ng Performing Arts, oo kasali ako sa performing arts, oo kumakanta ako, at UTANG NA LOOB wag kang manghusga! -.-

"Best describe what I feel right now? Hm... Dear No One by Tori Kelly."

They searched for the instrumental music and played it.

. . .

"I like being independent

Not so much of an investment

No one to tell me what to do

I like being by myself

Don't gotta entertain anybody else

No one to answer to"

Yes, I like being by myself. I like the feeling na you wont have to worry about anybody else, whether they get mad, upset, or what.

"But sometimes, I just want somebody to hold

Someone to give me their jacket when its cold

Got that young love even when we're old

Yeah sometimes, I want someone to grab my hand

Pick me up, pull me close, be my man

I will love you till the end"

Pero, di mo talaga maiiwasang di hangarin na you'll be with someone. Yung tipong you feel you're safe, loved, cared, parang ang sarap kasi sa feeling.

Naranasan niyo na ba yung naghahanap ka ng isang bagay tapos sa sobrang desperate kang makita yun, di mo makita yung hinahaap mo? That's how life goes. You'll desperately find The One, pero di mo makikita. Para makita mo siya, you just have to stop searching, and you'll find him later on.

"So if you're out there I swear to be good to you

But I'm done lookin', for my future someone

Cause when the time is right

You'll be here, but for now

Dear no one, this is your love song"

I though I've found 'you', pero di pala. Akala ko kaw na, I was willing to take the fall... pero wala e. Hindi ata talaga ikaw.

"I don't really like big crowds

I tend to shut people out

I like my space, yeah

But I'd love to have a soul mate

God will give him to me someday

& I know it'll be worth the wait"

But I'll wait patiently for the right man. Kasi alam ko all will be worth it if 'siya' na talaga. The wait will be worth it, I know it will.

"So if you're out there I swear to be good to you

But I'm done lookin', for my future someone

Cause when the time is right

You'll be here, but for now

Dear no one, this is your love song

But sometimes, I just want somebody to hold

Someone to give me their jacket when its cold

Got that young love even when we're old

Yeah sometimes, I want someone to grab my hand

Pick me up, pull me close, be my man

I will love you till the end

So if you're out there I swear to be good to you

But I'm done lookin', for my future someone

Cause when the time is right

You'll be here, but for now

Dear no one, this is your love song"

Someday, I'll be everything to someone. I just have to wait for him...