We've been talking, sharing details about our lives, it's been 3 days since we started talking to each other through phone.
Maghapon kaming magkatext ni Frank, as always,
nung bandang gabi na tumawag siya bigla...
"Uy Katie! Busy ka?" tanong ni Frank
"Hindi naman gaano. Bakit Frank?"
"Wala lang. Usap lang tayo..."
"Ha? Kanina pa kaya tayo naguusap! Baliw ka ba?"
"Hahaha. Wala lang. Gusto ko lang ng makakausap."
"Haaay nako! Oo na, sige na nga. Wala naman akong gagawin e. Sige, makwento ka lang."
. . .
"Hay... I have a problem..."
"Ano yun?"
"I can't get over my ex, and feeling ko I'm using someone. I feel bad. Kasi parang ginagawa ko lang siyang panakip butas..."
"Alam mo Frank... kung ang sugat may dugo pa, 'wag mong lagyan ng band aid."
"Ha? Ano? Di ko gets."
"In short, 'wag kang gagamit ng panakip butas kung alam mong mahal mo pa siya. Hindi mag hihilom ang sugat at masasayang lang ang 'band aid' na pinang takip mo."
"But I feel like I need it..."
"Having someone as your rebound is a great way to boost your ego, Frank, while completely shattering someone's life into pieces. Pero mas masakit ng doble, alam mo bakit? Kasi you're making them feel whole then you'll break them into pieces." I made sure I put emphasis on each word I say, making sure he'll understand my point.
I half-expect him to crack a joke, expecting him to say "Wow! Hugot! Hahaha!" but all I heard was a deep sigh from the other line...
"Hey Frank. Ayos ka pa?"
"Have you ever felt being someone's rebound?"
Hindi ko alam, pero that's what I feel whenever I'm with you,
"Nope. How would I know?"
And reality bitch-slap me real hard. Thanks.
May mahal na siyang iba Katie, and he can't get over her. Ayan na oh! Siya na mismo nagsabi.
Maybe it's a wrong thing I admitted that I'm falling for him.
Buti nalang agad agad akong sinampal ng katotohanan. Buti nalang. Kasi kung hindi, baka lalo lang masakit.
Kaya Tip #5: Don't get too friendly. Avoid long conversations with this person. And most importantly, completely avoid late night texts or phone calls where both of you share intimate details of each other's lives. You have to remember that in this case, you aren't getting friendlier with this person, you're falling deeper in love and that's not good at all. Na-ah! It will never be a good thing.
Minsan napapa-isip nalang ako kung may tao nga bang manhid. Then it dawned to me...
Manhid nga ba siya o hindi mo lang tanggap na hanggang mag kaibigan lang talaga kayo.
I looked at my reflection in my mirror, I saw a pair of eyes filled with pain and disappointment. A face filled with different emotions. A face that depicts an exhausted soul, an exhausted person, a person who lost hope...
Di ako 'to.
I never saw my self like this.
I never saw this face until I felt this damn thing.
Utang na loob Katie! Pick up yourself! Sobrang busy mo sa pag alam sa kung anong nararamdaman mo nakalimutan mong unti unti ka nang nahuhulog, unti unti nang humihina ang depensa mo.
Ugh! This can't be!
It's too early to label this as love, pero I now believe that love does not only builds, but it also tears you down. Pag nagmahal ka, you lost all your values, your principles, you lost all what you believed before, at pag nagmahal ka... pati yung metal shield na pinaligid mo sayo, unti unting nalulusaw. Nangyayari 'to di dahil automatic ito.
This happens kasi you let it happen. This happens kasi ikaw mismo ang sumisira ng prinsipyong tinatatak mo sa utak mo, kasi ikaw mismo ang nagbubuhos ng lava sa bakal na shield na pinaligid mo. The shield that used to be your protection. The shield where you used to hide behind...
*1 message received from Frank
Malungkot ka, nag joke ako. Tumawa ka ng tumawa, napatawa na rin ako.
May problema ka, nag joke ulit ako. Tumawa ka ulit, napatawa mo na rin ako.
Galit ka, nag joke pa rin ako. Dahil dun napatawa ka nalang at napawi ang galit, tumawa din ako.
Sinabi ko "Mahal kita", akala mo nagjo-joke pa rin ako...
Humahalakhak ka, habang humihikbi ako.
HAHAHAHA! Kawawa naman! Wala lang.. Nabasa ko lang. Hahaha. Good night Katie! See you tomorrow! ;)
Ayan nanaman. Nanggugulo ka nanaman Frank...
Gago ka Frank.
Gago!
Para san to? Ha?!
Gago ka talaga!!
Putangina!
Patahimikin mo naman ako!
SHET!
A person won't send such thing without a reason! Conscious man ang reason niya or subconscious, still may dahilan bakit ka magsesend nang ganyan sa isang tao.
UGH!!!
Please lang. Pagod na ako... Tama na please.
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