My Journal (Or Whatever)

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So far this week has been shit on Monday I found out that I was being tested for high functioning autism like I don't really care if I have autism but the test is going to be wrong bc I purposely skipped a question and don't want to know the actual answers as I said idc if I have autism it's just that people tend to judge just bc someone has autism and I'm not in the mood for bullshit
I think 3 days ago a English teacher came to my place and I swear my anxiety was so bad I nearly fucking cried she was only here for an hour and it felt like forever but every week from now on it is going to be 2 hours with other teachers and teachers will be coming every day the week before the finals and idk I hate anyone that comes to my place and it is just overwhelmingly stressful and idk what to do the rest of the night was shit I don't want to tell what happened to lead up to this but I got so dizzy that if I got up I would just fall over I head a really bad headache but I couldn't get up to get Advil and it was some what hard to breath
Today was fucking shit as well idk I really wasn't in a good mood and all I wanted to do was cry I didn't tell anyone that though which was good honestly I don't want to fucking be here anymore everything is shit and idk what to fucking do and I'm just lost everything that I wanted to do when I grow up has changed and idk what to do I just want to be left alone yet I don't I'm just so confused