Black and White✔✖

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I hate this feeling
This-This reoccurring one
You know, where you feel nothing and everything at once
It frustrates me
It-It-it
Hurts
It feels so normal tho
I can't do this anymore
Today, I said that I wanted to hurt myself
Of course this is a normal thing, cause I joke around a lot
Only this time was different
This time I felt what I was saying
This time I meant them
I meant every word when I said
'Hand me the scissors'
'Hurt me, so it won't be my fault'
And every other word I said
All of them, I genuinely meant this time
This wasn't a joke
This wasn't me being depressing
This was me being unhappy
This was me being depressed
This was me being me

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