Black and White✔✖

Lies

I'm sorry
I have been lying to everyone
I'm sorry to-
My friends
My family
The people who knew me
The people yet to know me
I'm really sorry
For lying like this
I'm not happy
I said I was
I said that I was fine, but
These tear stained cheeks prove otherwise
I lied to all of you
I didn't want anyone to think I was an attention seeker, so
I just smiled
Every joke,
Smile,
Laugh,
And sarcastic comment
Was the hiding of my feelings
I'm so sorry to all of you
I'm sorry for doing the one thing I hate most of all
I lied
I continually lied
And I'm still doing it
I cry myself to sleep
But you don't need to know that
I'm breaking inside
My heart is slowly shattering
But you don't need to know that either
My throat burns and my head hurts
From the sobbing and loss of sleep
But you also don't need to know this
Then again do you even care?
I think that if you actually cared you would have noticed something
Like the unbearable sadness in my eyes
Or the bags slowly becoming bigger
Or the way my lips are always bit down
Or how my eyes are always puffy
Or even how my nails dig into my skin leaving marks
So yes I have lied to all of you, but you never cared in the first place
I may be hiding my feelings, but you should have seen through my facade
Through this mask of happiness
Through it all
You should have noticed the depressing state I was in all of the time
But its my fault that you didn't
I was the one who chose to get close to a person who doesn't care
That was my choice
It was my own decision to be with these people who I swore cared
This was all my fault
So I'm sorry
For I have been lying to everyone
I'm so sorry to-
My friends
My family
The people who knew me
And especially the people who are yet to know me
Cause the people who are yet to know me
Are the ones who are supposed to see through my mask, but they won't
So I'm sorry to you
I'm sorry to everyone
I'm just sorry
That I have been lying
For everything is my fault

400 Words!!
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Unedited
This was pretty long!!
I read a poem
(Forgot what it was called)
But it inspired me to write this sooooo I did😁😁
I hope you like it and

Never blame yourself for another's actions. Not everything is your fault, so don't carry the world on your shoulders. It was their choice not yours. Never blame yourself for anothers decision