Black and White✔✖

i never realized...

I never realized how awkward I rlly am

I never realized how scared I rlly am, whether I show it or not

I never realized how I bite my lips 24/7

Or how I get jealous rlly easily

Or how much I rlly care

Until everything breaks down

And these realizations come to life

I don't approach ppl cause I'm too awkward

I am always afraid of losing people or didappointing them. It scares the life outta me

My lips are chapped and the inside has a permanent mark. I've tasted blood before, metallic and all

I see everyone happy. It makes me jealous. It makes me hate them, but its only because they have what I've always wanted

I say the words "I Don't Care" all the time. The only problem is that i do care. I care too much. I love like Icarus loved the sun, too much and too close.

And then it all rushes out. Its like a waterfall of feelings.

Everything breaks

I break

And realization hits

I have too many feelings

What happened to being numb?

Welp, it didnt work out.

Cause my heart is too big

And my head too stupid

And that is why I am still a naïve little girl.

A/N
This wasn't supposed to be a poem.
I meant to just rant, but this happened, so ye😁😁