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Wasn't expecting that...

She looks so beautiful, who am I kidding she was always beautiful  doesn't mean she still can't take my breath away, even now she's "- say a few words"

"Sorry?"

"Your speech, I believe you wanted to say a few words" the minister said, smiling at me softly

"Right, I did"

I nervously open the two pieces of paper I had been holding in my hand for what felt like forever, and quickly clear my throat

"I think we all know by now I'm not exactly good at these sorts of things, after all my last one ended in tears, mostly mine" I smile when I hear our friends and family laugh "so I apologise in advance, because well you can expect the same" I move closer to you, and take a deep breath

"When we first met and you smiled at me, I knew right then, it was love at first sight, it was only a smile, but my heart it went wild, I wasn't expecting that" I can't help but smile thinking about it, we met in a green room, as luck would have it we had been appearing on the same talk show

"The first time we had all hung out at mani's house, was also the first time you kissed me, it was-"

"Bish what? I didn't know tha- OW ally"

"As I was saying it was just a delicate kiss, anyone could've missed, my face afterwards said everything, I wasn't expecting that" you thought I was asleep, the next day you acted so normal, I kept thinking 'Did I misread the sign?'

"The first time we held hands at the AMA's, your hand slipped into mine, I wasn't expecting that" we were seated next to each other, I remember being so nervous, so you not so discreetly because norminah caught you, held my hand to calm me

"When you spent the night in my bed, for the first time, because you drunkenly locked yourself out of your hotel room, you woke up and you said
'Well, I wasn't expecting that' " you were so hungover we ended up staying in bed all day, and night...

"Just say yous did it"

"Dinah!"

We totally did it... *clears throat* "I thought love wasn't meant to last, to be honest I thought you were just passing through" I was so scared of getting too close

"I used to say to myself when the time comes 'If I ever get the nerve to ask God, what did I get right to deserve somebody like you? What if he doesn't answer, and I remember you said, 'no response is a response. And it's a powerful one, remember that' I wasn't expecting that"

"The day I asked you to marry me, it was only a word, it was almost mis-heard 'yes' I wasn't expecting that" We were on vacation for our third year anniversary in Oahu, Hawaii the place you say you almost died, and I say dramatically splashed about screaming in shallow water, and yet the reason that prompted me to ask you

"But it came without fear, and some how a month turned into a year,
I wasn't expecting that"

"Growing up, I thought love wasn't meant to last, like I said, honey, I thought you were just passing through, I still kept telling myself, if I ever get the nerve to ask, what did I get right to deserve somebody like you? But I didn't, because I was scared, scared that maybe I might just get an answer, I wasn't expecting that

I can feel it, I can feel my emotions bubbling away, rising closer to the surface, come on you can do this, for her, just keep looking at her "Isn't it strange, how a life can be changed? In the flicker of the sweetest smile" God that smile, so infectious

"We were married in spring" You said it was like having the best of both worlds, I loved summer and you thrived in winter, so spring it was "You know I wouldn't change a thing, and as crazy as it sounds, without that innocent kiss, what a life I'd have missed" and what a life it's been

"If you'd not took a chance on a little romance" I remember it as though it was yesterday, the planetarium, you booked the whole place just for us, even had a little picnic set up at the front, it was our first date, you said that you took me there because it was only right that a world should see what it's worth, what it could be, what it's a part of, when I asked what you meant, you said 'Well, it's easy, you're my world, I knew it the second I met you, and I plan on being both your moon and sun, so I can watch over you as you sleep, and bring you sunshine through your darkness, but for now I'll make the most of just being a part of it' and that's exactly what you do, even when I wasn't expecting that from you

"Time doesn't take long, three kids up and gone" We tried so hard to have kids, but we got there eventually, the twins came first, Ryan and Dylan, then our sweet little girl shay, they grew up so fast, and I wasn't expecting that

I feel someone hold my hand, and wipe my tears, I didn't realise I was crying? "Mamá, ¿quieres que termine de leerlo por ti?" (Mom do you want me to finish reading it for you?) My sweet shay

I give her hand a little squeeze "Está bien pepita, puedo manejar"(It's ok nugget, I can manage)

"And when the nurses they came, I could tell just by the look, and that's when they said it's come back again, I wasn't expecting that" I was a mess, but you, you looked so calm, even in the months to come

"You asked to go home, said there was real patients who needed the beds more than you did, of course there was no changing your mind, and so you came home" Deep down when I think about it now, I know you knew, that's why you made sure you were at home with your family

"I'll never forget that day, it was raining outside, so us being us we were cuddled up in bed, neither of us had said anything, just enjoyed being together, then you turned to me out of the blue, and asked if I remembered what you had said to me on our first date, obviously I did, and I told you as much, that's when you took my hands, leaned forward and kissed me, you kissed me with so much passion and love, it was like you were telling me how you felt with this one kiss" I can still feel it, strong as ever on my lips, I squeeze shays hand tighter, the boys must have noticed, because now they're standing protectivly right by my side, just like she did...

"afterwards you -" I quickly try to clear the lump forming in my throat, you can do this!  "- afterwards you rested your head in front of mine, our foreheads touching, looked me straight in the eyes and said 'ask' any other time I would have asked her what she meant, but somehow I knew, so I did, I asked her, what did I get right to deserve somebody like you, and she said 'You gave me a chance, a chance to be a part of something wonderful, something magical, you gave me the chance to be a part of your world, a world that I love, a world that gave me the life that we have built with our family, I love you Lauren, with all my heart, I always will, but it's my time, I'm ready to be your moon and sun' -" I lean down to kiss your coffin, and look up at your photo, finally allowing my tears to flow freely "- then you closed your eyes, you took my heart by surprise, I wasn't expecting that!..."