R.I.P. (Radical. Immortal. Poetry.)

Misgivings

We're almost ten years together

And you're more complacent than ever.

But little by little I am losing that fire

Because I have other things that I desire.

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Why must I be careful from now on upon treading

Along the path to the person whom I was fine loving?

Is it because it is no longer the same all these years

For there are too many shed tears?

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Despite it all I would not be here if it was not for my feelings.

But now I am uncertain of our future, drowning in misgivings.

How long must I keep being adrift in this empty sea of waiting?

Are my prayers throughout the years all for nothing?

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My hope is a flame in the midst of a snowy storm.

My heart is shattering from its normal form.

My God, what happened to the plans you have for me?

I need some assurance and comfort for my destiny.

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I am trying my best not to break.

Being happy is absolutely fake.

I know I shouldn't worry about my tomorrow,

But I can't help it since I am constricted by sorrow.

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Fighting and more endless arguments,

It seems we are completely splintered fragments

Of our former selves, which were in better days.

Are we best to go on our separate ways?

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The pain of these thoughts are making me sick.

Losing everything will turn me weak.

My God, I have no one else to turn to.

Help my earnest prayers to come true.

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Copyright Star Ashley Cruz

Feb 16 2019