countless nights
i dreaded and feared that i would not meet him again.
i fell in love
i was a player
yes
but a night with him, made me change
a night were i thought it was the same as the one night flings i had,
but with him i felt different
the few hours with him was a bliss
a new feeling, arised every time i get to touch him
abd that made me cower in fear as it was a feeling still unknown and i was afraid of me losing
after that night, i tried so hard to forget him.
partied, here and there
got drunk
got laid
i tried going on a trip, just to forget him
but to no avail. it was for nought as everytime i get to be alone all i think was him
wonwoo once told me that "my friend, no matter what you do, if you fell that hard for him it'll be hard to make you forget him"
and just when i thought i was over him
i get to know that he was a friend of wonwoo
and the night i held him got a repeat.
but he fled the next day with out explaining
things even got more complicated when i found out that he had a child
and when i found that i immediately thought i was in a situation where i cant even fight for him, cause he is already tied to someone i do not know but could no exactly defeat and win against him
so once again i drowned my sorrow with liquors and wine
but my feelings did not budge a little it still continue to grow
and as i can not contain my emotions i forced my self to him
it was illegal
a crime, i know
i knew
and i regret that
i regret asking who his childs father
i regret telling that his child is a bastard
cause when he blurted his answer
"youre the father you jerk" (in chinese)
cause that made him hate me and made me hate my self
because of my recklessness i once again failed to claim him
after that incident, i knew i should leave to cool my self
but should not have as i came back there were no trace of my child and him
it made me lose my mind
as i slowly digest the situation
i got even more mad at my self
for nor doing the right thing
why did i not just confess my feelings
why did i choose to play
and hurt him
now how can i find him
if all my efforts
leads me to a zero probability of finding him
with out options
i got devastated
so much, as i even loose composure at work
and
stare at nothingness every time i think of my reality of not being with him
so i kept on praying.
praying to lord
to give me a chance
even one percent
i promised him
to took that chance, as to make every thing right and in place.
to make up with mychild and him
but that chance was no where to find
completely feeling defeated
i finally got the courage to ask my best friend
the help i needed
so i confessed everything
he was shocked to find that the one i fell a his close friend
but luckily he was understanding
he took the situation well
and asked his friends for help
but still the chance to meet him was still beyond my reach as there was still no minghao
and again i tried to look for him went to his home town in china hoping he was at his parents
but no sheer luck
he was not there, when i asked
his parents asked me who i am
i got scared,
i feared as i would make them mad for hurting their child
but i was ready to face their wrath
if that would make them accept me for their child
so i explained the situation, calmly they listened to every thing, no detail undisclosed. i told them in all honesty. everything
after i finished, i was met with an awkward silence so i dreaded that it was the end of my life.
but things turned to the unexpected as i opened my eyes from my silent prayer
i was in a warm embrace of his mother and father
they told me to win their child no matter what
then they would officially accept him
for their child
after i came back to korea
i resumed my search, hoping to finally get to where my love is
till a strand of hope finally arrived for me
as mingyu told me a clue
where his possible location might be
part 2 later
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REVENGE
Fanfictiondisowned, with your heart broken and scarred, will wonwoo be able to forgive mingyu after ten years will he choose to forgive or will he get his revenge