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Window

I'm writing this because I'm scared.
Scared that I can't move forward,
That I have lost all feeling in my fingers and toes.
I'm so fucking scared.

I'm writing this because I'm alone.
Alone in this decision I'll have to make,
In whether or not I should do something about it.
Why am I alone?

I'm writing this because I'm sad.
So sad that I know this situation has gotten worse
That I keep looking towards high up windows for help.
I can't help being sad.

I'm writing this because I'm lost.
So lost that I keep taking lethal wrong turns,
That I don't even know what's at the bottom anymore.
Someone find me please!

I'm writing this because I'm here.
I'm right here on the sill waiting,
Waiting for something that might not ever come.
I just can't stay here...

I'm writing this because I've jumped.
I've jumped because I hope for someone to be there,
Because I believe that someone is there.
I've shot my only flare.

I'm writing this because I'm dying.
I'm dying because I jumped,
I jumped because I didn't want to stay here,
I couldn't stay because I was so lost,
I was lost because I was sad and alone.
I was alone because I was scared.

I'm looking through this window.
This window because it was my choice,
Because I found myself.
I'm no longer alone.