Don't Fall In Love (JENLISA, G!P - COMPLETED)

Chapter 20

Lalisa Manoban.

My mom passed away when I was 15 and so I know that no other person can truly know how Jennie are feeling now. I may not know what to say to her at this time as I don't want to make her feel any worse especially she was pregnant, she was passed out when she heard Jongin told her Ella alr gone. I remember  the same feeling that I couldn't possibly forget for the rest of my life. It's okay to be selfish, I will understand if Jennie tell me that she don't want me to be there and tell me to go away. But I would keep trying to make her feel better and always there to support her. I told her Ella in a better place now and she's not in pain anymore but Jennie keep pushing me away, the next day after Ella funeral, Jennie shut herself in the room, sometimes she cry, scream and shout, I know is not easy and it was the most painful thing she have ever been through but I'm just worrying about the baby. Jennie seems lost her mind for a while and forgot about the baby.

"Jennie. Please open the door. You haven't eaten since this morning, I know this is such a difficult time for you but please think about our baby Nini..." I yelled behind the door and no answers

"Nini.. Please.. Let me in~" I yells again and then I heard the sound of the door unlocked but Jennie left the door closed.

I opened the door slowly with a tray of foods, I walked in towards the bed and put the tray on the bedside table. Jennie was leaned her back in the bed and was seating on the floor with her arms wrapped around her legs

"Nini..." I called her softly as kneeled down but no response. I leaned to the bed and seating on the floor too, as gentle as possible I put her head on my shoulder

"I know I can't make your pain go away, but I want you to know that I'm here with a shoulder or an ear or anything else you need..." I softly says again eventho I know she won't give me any respond, I took her hand and intertwine our fingers tightly

"I know how you feel. I know you will miss her deeply. I'm going to miss her, too" I said again and again even no answers. I turned my head toward her and placed my hands on her face

"But you know. Ella will always with us. Nothing on the earth can separate her, not time, not space, not even death, she is in our heart" I staring deeply into her eyes while caressing her cheeks softly and Jennie lightly wiped her tears then looked up at me. The moment she landed her eyes on me was the moment I  feel the pain in my chest seeing how heartache Jennie losing her sister through her eyes. We remained staring at each other eyes for a few minutes until I heard Jennie stomach rumbling

"Nah looks, my baby is hungry, you may not have appetite but my baby needs something to eat from you so I'll feed you now" I said firmly as lifted her body up to the bed forcefully

"I'm not the one who made this food so you don't have to worry that I am planned to kill you.." I said trying to joke around and make her smile but no response

The whole time Jennie was completely in silence. She may opened her mouth to eat the food I feed her but no words come out from her mouth, she didn't say anything even I kept talking or ask her something.  After she done eating we fell into a long silence. I had my hands on her belly played and talked to my baby but Jennie still didn't speak any words. It's really breaking my heart to see her like that, she look like losing herself. I placed my hands on her face, my hand rested below her ears, and my thumbs caressed her cheeks. We stared at each other, seeing deep into each other eyes, I ran my fingers slowly down to Jennie spine, pulling her gently into a slow and soft kiss. Jennie closed her eyes and followed every movement of my lips, I pulled away and rested my forehead against her, stares at her deep in the eyes.

(Listen to Love Someone - Lukas Graham)

"You can cry, you can sad, you can shout or scream, but I miss you Nini, I miss your voice, I miss your smile.." I whispered as inhaled deeply