All Falls Down

Veintiuno

Nagising ang inaantok kong diwa nang nakita si Craig sa labas ng bahay. Pasado alas diyes na at wala akong ideya kung bakit siya naririto ng ganitong oras at ano ang kailangan niya?

Umupo ako sa kama at pinagisipan kung bababain ko ba siya o hindi. I had been deeply asleep and the next instant, I was wide awake. The sound had awakend me. Tutal naman nagising narin naman ako, pupuntahan ko na siya.

Mabilis parin ang kalabog ng puso ko habang tinatahak ang daan pababa. My feet bare, not wanting to make any sound that would make my parents awake. My nightdress is swirling around my tights. Dahan dahan kong binuksan ang pinto at lumabas. Even at this late hour I can still see his broodingness. His messy dark hair glistened in the lamplight. It was wet. Naligo siya? Ng ganitong oras?

He tilted his head. Ramdam ko ang pagyanig ng sistema ko nang magtama ang tingin namin. I was shaking all over, too confused to know what I should do about this awful sheer physical desire I felt for him. Nanatili akong nakatayo sa loob ng gate. Lumapit siya at humawak sa mga bakal na harang.

"Aryssa, lets talk... please." he begged breathily.

I was speechless for a moment, forcing myself to conquer this ridiculous fluttering weakness. Nang mahanap na ang sariling boses ay tinago ko ang tunay na nararamdaman sa pamamagitan ng galit.

"Anong ginagawa mo dito? Hindi mo ba alam kung anong oras na?" pabulong na singhal ko sa kanya.

"Mag-usap tayo,"

"Ano bang pag-uusapan natin, Craig? Ganitong oras talaga?" I paused.

Hindi ba kasama nito ang fiancee sa iisang kwarto? Baka magising iyon at maisipang hanapin siya at--tss! Eh ano ngayon? As if I even care if he--!! Ugh!

"I don't think this is a good idea, Craig. Ikakasal ka na!--" he cut me mid sentence.

"No! No! I am not going to marry anyone. Please. Just let me talk to you,"

"Craig, tinatakot mo ako..."

"What? I just want to talk to you. Ngayon lang ang naisip ko na oras para makausap ka--because I know I won't have all the time to talk to you tomorrow. Si Laxx, he's always clinging to you and that pisses me off!"

Pinagmasdan ko siyang maiigi. He looks so wild for me. He had a large frame, but life had given him a lean trimness. Hard work had built a powerful body with a vast supply of vitality. He was self assured and oozing with confidence. Meanwhile I was always the aloof and timid girl. Always anxious and always scared.

Huminga ako ng malalim at lumapit ng bahagya sa gate. Napapikit ako nang naramdaman ang mainit niyang mga palad sa magkabila kong pisngi.

"At least come out on the gate," my eyes flashed at him angrily.

"You can leave the gate open and yell back to your house if you're afraid I'll rape you." he said with a sexy half smirk.

My face heated with unknown desire. Nalaglag ang panga ko at napakurap kurap. Damn! It's not because of the rape word he said but the way he said it! He made me get the idea of 'You wont resist me and you're going to like it.'

You fool! Get your shit together!

Parang nahihipnotismong binuksan ko ang gate at lumabas. The creaking sound of the rusty metals made my heart jump. Mabilis kong nilingon ang bahay kung mayroon bang senyales na nagising ang mga tao sa loob, nang makitang payapa pa rin ang lahat ay nakahinga ako ng maluwag.

The thought of sneaking out with Craig at this hour gives me an undeniable excitement. Gosh! The hell is happening with me!? I would be very embarrass once he knew that I have been commenting jealous little twits about them.