angel of death

xxvix.

[WARNING: sensitive topic(?) coming up i guess... my friend said i have to put this on top so here ya go]

❝DEPRESSION.❞

TAEHYUNG basically skipped homeroom and first period. he can't bring himself to face jeongguk and the others. not after what jeongguk had said about him.

but then, he decides to at least show up for the second and third period. which was, unfortunately, the classes that gave homework.

"kim taehyung? where is your homework?" the teacher asked.

"i-i'm so sorry sir... i didn't do that homework..." taehyung answered. mr. lee sighed.

"why didn't you do it? you always turn in your homework- woah, what happened to your eyes?" mr. lee asked once he saw taehyung's red eyes.

"o-oh... nothing's wrong... m-must've been the dust from my bed this morning." taehyung lied but mr. lee can see what was wrong.

"were you crying taehyung?" mr. lee asked and taehyung's eyes immediately watered. he shook his head once he realized he was standing in front of the whole class and that jeongguk was staring right at him.

mr. lee sighed and nodded for taehyung to return to his seat. he knew he can trust that teacher. mr. lee is a kind teacher and everyone trusts him.

taehyung knows mr. lee is going to let every teacher that taehyung is going to be taught in, to not bother taehyung for today. and possibly the rest of the school days.

taehyung silently cried as class began. he couldn't focus. for once in his life, taehyung can't focus in class.

he can't focus in class without jeongguk holding his hand during lectures. he can't focus without jeongguk passing him notes in between work time to just say 'i love you' in it. he can't focus without jeongguk glancing at him and giving him a wink every time they make eye contact.

"mr. kim, what is the answer to question number four?" mr. lee suddenly spoke. taehyung snapped his head up, forgetting there were tears running down his face.

it was a science equation and taehyung hasn't heard the last few words mr. lee has said and now he doesn't know what the equation means.

"i-i'm sorry sir... i didn't listen..." taehyung mumbled and mr. lee sighed plus, the whole class laughed except for jeongguk.

"try to catch up right now. take out your notebook and write down the things i wrote down on the whiteboard." mr. lee instructed and taehyung hastily searched his backpack for his notebook and pencil.

unfortunately, he forgot to bring his pencil case and all he had was a black marker. taehyung sighed angrily.

a person suddenly handed taehyung a pencil and he immediately grabbed it before realizing that it was jeongguk who gave it.

"n-no thanks... i-i have m-my own pencil." taehyung said and shoved it back to jeongguk.

taehyung was forced to write with a black marker, which he knew he wouldn't be able to read again.

jeongguk, however, looked at taehyung with regret in his eyes. he doesn't know why though. he's supposed to be feeling hatred to taehyung but he can't help feeling regret for blaming taehyung.

"but it's taehyung who killed my father... right?" jeongguk thought but then continued to focus on the lesson.

but he can't. he had to look at taehyung to check whether the boy was ok or not.

which taehyung wasn't ok. the tears in his eyes kept spilling on his notebook which makes the marker smudge everywhere. he furiously wiped his tears away from his eyes and kept on ripping the paper to use a new one.

and by at the end of class, his papers were finished and he can't even finish writing the formula on the board.

jeongguk was the only one left in class when he heard, "mr. lee, c-can i use my phone to photo the f-formula?"

"what do you mean mr.kim? didn't you write it down already?" 

taehyung shook his head.

"i'm sorry but you have to remember that we don't allow phone during class. why don't you ask jeongguk there?" mr. lee said.

taehyung's eyes widened and shook his head, quickly saying, "n-no thanks! i-i'll just search it up online. t-thanks mr. lee!"

-

when jeongguk arrived in the third period, taehyung was nowhere to be found. it was just like the first time he met taehyung.

the third period, taehyung was gone and jeongguk had to go find him.

and that's what jeongguk is doing. 

mr. kim, the math teacher, sent jeongguk (again) to find taehyung.

but this time, jeongguk's isn't mad. 

he's rather concerned.

taehyung never skipped class - except the time when jeongguk met him on the bench - and he comes around 5 minutes late if he didn't show up on the first bell.

but now, taehyung is gone for half of the class time and hasn't come back. jeongguk was sent out to find taehyung but he has not found that boy yet.

but there is one place jeongguk hasn't checked yet and it's the boys bathroom.

jeongguk slowly walked towards the boys' bathroom until he hears whimpers.

"p-please... i don't want to be depressed again... please v. let me die rather than being depressed and broken w-without ggukie..." jeongguk heard taehyung beg.