My Love Hurts You (BoyXboy)

Chapter 16

*Jackie's POV. Back to normal and Trigger warning*

So Im just chilling. Laying on my couch. Wondering when the fuck my mom will get her ass home and stuff. I'm hungry. I don't feel like making myself any food. I guess I'll just STARVE.

Why am I so booooorreed all the time. Wait a minute. I totally forgot that Zachary exists. I'll call him.

Well never mind then. The cunt didn't pick up.

The house phone rings, but I don't bother to pick it up. I never answer the house phone. Everyone knows this. No one who wants to talk to me will call the house phone.

I guess I could go take a shower or something. Jeez. It's like the zombie apocalypse, and I'm surviving off nothing. I lowkey can't remember the last time I took a shower. Oh wait yes I can. That day Kenneth washed me. I swear. I'm starting to become one lazy mo'fucka.

I go to my room and pick out some cloths to change into for when I get out the shower.

I choose some boxers and any old T-shirt. I don't plan to go outside today.

I strip off my cloths and run around nude to the bathroom, all the way across the house.
It's fun.

Hmm shower or bath.. Baths are nice. Showers are nice too. Baths take too long.

I hop in my shower and shut the sliding door thing.

Of course I proceed to turn on water, making it nice and hot.

I stood under the water feeling the burning sensation in every cut I have.

I never noticed it before, but I have a lot of cuts on my waistline. Damn. It actually kinda hurts. Where did those come from? If that was fucking Kenneth I swear to fucking god I'm gonna have to kick his ass. Motherfucker needs to cut his fUCKIN NAILS.

I lightly run my fingers over the cuts. Definitely looks like finger nail marks.
What if I did this to myself in my sleep? Hm Nahhhh. I wouldn't do dumb shit like that. I mean I've done some dumb shit before, but my nails are too short.

I end up sitting on the floor. I'm tired okay..

The entire room fills with steam.

It's almost hard to breathe. Suffocation. Knowing my lungs are actually being filled with water everytime I breathe in. It's like I'm drowning. Safely.

I crawl directly under the water.

My hair looks so long when it's wet.

I press my hot hand against my cold face. It feels good. I like being warm. I like being hot. I like feeling good.

Why is my face always so cold? Maybe I don't have good blood flow to my face.

I close my eyes and put my head in my knees.

I could stay in the shower forever. I love the sound. I love how It feels. I could sleep in here. I could just never leave. I really could just stay in here forever. There's no one to stop me.

But the hot water will run out soon...

I lean my back against the wall. My legs still basking in the water.

I miss my friends.. I feel like I haven't seen them in forever.

I'm so.. Lonely. what the fuck.

My stomach growled loudly.
Ugh I guess i'll get out and make myself something to eat.

I turn off the water and throw on a robe. I don't even feel like getting dressed right now.

I leave the bathroom, leaving the door open so it can air out.