A sanctuary of thoughts

Love never gets replaced

We'll make memories as we move ahead, memories we will never want to relive again,
Maybe you were my favourite star, but I needed his sparkle too,
All the nights when I talk to you on the phone,
Sometimes I hear his voice too, it echoes within me,
We've fallen apart so many times, because I can't decide,
Because I'm selfish, I need your love but I need his trust too,
You say that I should run away with you, but my strings attached to him are just so strong,
That they don't break, I feel your love slipping like sand from my hands,
But I can do nothing but keep picking it up again and again,
We fight, I know you need me, but my heart needs his warmth too,
Every time I feel his hand in mine but it's you I'm with, I hate myself,
I hear his words in the songs you sing,
I'm falling and falling,
I know I'm a traitor, for stealing all that is yours,
Never even giving back a little in return,
Every night I have dreams about you and me together,
But I daydream about him,
I'm sorry, I'm not the girl you thought I was ,
When you met me on that autumn evening,
All I can say is maybe it'll get easier, maybe you'll find someone who loves you, like I love him.