My Nerd Project

Chapter 32: Please Just..

"She said she had to take care of something; she wanted to be here when you woke up, but we didn't know when you were gonna wake up exactly." He answered, looking down. "or if.." He muttered, looking away.

"Guys I don't really remember what happened." They both looked at me at this, almost looking apologetic. "All I know is that I had an allergic reaction, and that my memory of it is supposed to come back soon, but I'm blank right now."

"Do you remember the party?" Kevin asked me. I thought back. "We were hanging out, drinking cokes together."

"Us three?"

"And our dates." He explained. "You had Blaine, I had Charlie, and Jesse has Ms. Leather Jacket."

"That's not her name," Jesse said with an eye roll. Kevin shrugged. I thought back to that moment.

"I think I remember that, and then Shelly came right? She asked who wanted drinks.. And Lily." Her name for some reason felt weird coming out of my mouth, "said she wanted one?"

"Yeah." Kevin confirmed.

"She drank, and um.." I laid back, annoyed that the memories were fumbled. "Am I mad at Lily? When I think of her name, I get a weird taste in my mouth." Kevin and Jesse looked at each other. "Could you guys just tell me what happened?"

"You followed her out, Lily that is, since she was drinking and being a.. jerk. She wasn't making much sense with her words, but she.. Well when Blaine was looking, she purposely.." Memories flashed through my eyes and I couldn't help but feel bad.

"She kissed me."

"Blaine saw." Jesse said, looking beyond frustrated. "That's why you got the allergic reaction, she ate raisins before so it passed over when that stupid home-wrecker couldn't keep her dirty lips off you."

"Jess," Kevin said trying to calm his friend down.

"Am I wrong?" He spat.

"The doctor said we couldn't work him up, you have to relax." I heard Kevin mutter to his friend. We heard a gentle knock on the door before it opened. Blaine stood there, looking upset before she saw me. She looked surprised to see me awake; she just stood there shocked frozen in spot.

"Blaine?" I asked, calling her. She dropped her bag, and her eyes started to water. She suddenly ran to me and wrapped her arms around my neck, sobbing on me. I wrapped my arms around her, just as tight. I didn't realize how much I missed her until now. But it was breaking my heart to hear her cry. "Hey come on, it's okay." I said trying to soothe her. She just held me tighter.

"You- you-you scared me so much." She said trying to talk but crying too much. I tried to hold back the tears threatening to fall. I told myself to keep them in.

"I know, I'm sorry." I said rubbing her back. "It's okay Blaine, I'm okay now, I promise." I looked up to see Jesse and Kevin weren't in the room anymore. They must've left to give us some privacy. I sat Blaine on the bed next to me, pulling back so I could see her. Her eyes were red and more tears started to pour out. "Blaine it's okay." I grabbed tissues from the table beside my hospital bed and gave them to her. She used them and gave me such a sad look; it broke my heart.

"I don't want you to hate me." She said. I gave her a surprised look, trying to blink my own tears away.

"Why would I hate you?" I questioned her, not knowing what she was talking about. She shook her head.

"It's just before we got together, you were okay. You weren't in the hospital, and she kissed you b-because of me, and you got hurt." She said crying some more, looking at the machines. I gently grabbed her cheek, turning her attention away from them.

"Blaine, calm down. I can never hate you." I promised. She just shook her head. I put her back in my arms. Blaine wasn't hugging me back this time.

"She broke your glasses." She said.

I felt my heart drop in my stomach. I couldn't even stop the tears this time.

"What?" I said fear rising at me. "What do you mean?"

"She stepped on them Alan; she was too drunk to realize." She said hugging me tight now, I bit my lip to stop the sob from coming out.

Calm down Alan, you need to be strong for Blaine. But what am I going to do now? How am I gonna be strong for me? Should I ask Blaine to leave me for a while before I break down? The tears were already pouring out.

"Blaine.." I said with a shaky voice. "Please Blaine, please.." Who do I have now? Will my dad hate me? Why did I have to be so weak that tiny raisins can break me down? It's my fault for this. Dad please forgive me. I tried to take a deep breath. What would make this better, easier to handle? I thought to the girl in my arms and hugged her tighter making my decision and letting my sob out, "just stay."

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