FRIENDS? || E.G.D.

Chapter sixteen - The agreement

"C'moon, you are ruining this beautiful situation", Ethan says and even if I know he was joking, it still hurts. I don't know, maybe because I think he might be a nice guys but then jokes about things like that.
"If I say, I don't know, it's not my fault that you've come this far even if I'm nit ready for this. Or maybe it is my fault", I say before Ethan interrupts me.
"It's not your fault."
"Let me speak." I sigh deeply. "I can't know if you break my heart sometime. I can't know can I truly trust you. Maybe it would be good now and I'll be happy but if we broke up? If you cheat on me or something worse happened?" I watch him straight in the eyes, those hazel brown eyes which have a little features of green. I know I have tears in my eyes right now and my eyes definitely just shines of them.
"Don't cry. I won't leave you."
"Promise?"
"I promise."
"Can I trust you?"
"Yes, Maria."

I don't know what is going wrong in my head or what happens but I finally agree, I can finally say his mine even if in theory he isn't. I'm still not sure about what am I doing but I try to think that life is now, Ethan is a nice guy, he wouldn't cheat on me and I probably can trust him. Maybe it's because this is my first time so I'm a little nervous but when I get used to it, I might be much more sure about this.

Ethan is just inch or two away from me. Our foreheads are touching but we can still see each others eyes. It's a beautiful moment when everything else just is forgotten, it's just this moment, his face and its features, and I could watch his face all day and all night everyday. I just think how cute and handsome and pretty he is, every stress and worry fades away. I'm in peace.

I don't want that Ethan is the one that always does the start but I'm also the one who can't move at all. So Ethan leans his soft lips on mine, they feel cool but full and comfy. They fit perfectly on my lips even if my lips are litttle bit smaller. His breath smells like strong mint, maybe mouth wash or something. And in which point he found time to do that? Ethan's kisses are slow, kind of careful that what I can do, after he get to know that I haven't kiss before. Because last time he was hungrier. But I like this. It's nice. Our noses touch lightly each other sometimes. It feels amazing. I always wondered why people kiss so much, even in public, like everytime a couple is kissing and pushing their tongues each other's mouths. But Ethan doesn't use tongue. Which is good because I'm kind of scare of that. Wait, doesn't Ethan have OCD?