" i can put on a show "
A journal that is full of half truths that turn into real truths. My journey throughout adolescence. My journey through undiagnosed depression. Come for the memes, stay for the letters to me.
I feel like I'm getting to the point in my life where I lose all of my current freinds and I fall into a sociopathic state of mind where I don't want to feel anything at all. And I don't care for others.
I don't want to be like this. I don't want to loose friends every few years. But I think it's a part of life at this point.
I just feel so sad. I feel betrayed and frustrated and sad. I feel like sometimes people just use me and then hope I'll disappear.
I think one still cares for me though. She just sent me one of those I love you so much memes. Like this
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And now I'm sobbing.
Because I feel like shes the only one who cares about me now.
Maybe I'm just over reacting. And it'll be okay.
I hope it'll be okay.
But I'm not okay and I wish they could see that but I don't want to tell them that cause then I'll feel like I'm using them.
