~~langst~~ (one shots)

the note

Before I can even leave the playground I'm pinned to the gate by strong hands.

Lotor.

His hand is clasped around my throat. His fingers digging in deeply. I can't breath.

His goons come up beside him from the light shadows the sunrise casts.

"Well well well. I've been waiting for weeks for my plan to work. For your friends to dump you in the dirt. It took quite some time for my plan to work you know? They were some good friends you had" lotor says sneering a smirk playing on his face.

"Let me go" i hiss. My throat is almost fully closed and it's difficult to get a full breath in.

"Why? This site what I've been waiting for"

Suddenly the air is knocked from my chest and my stomach feels like it's been hit by a train.

One of lotor gang punched me.

Lotor rises me off the floor and his mates continue to punch me. He drops me to the floor allowing me to breath momentarily before kicking the wind out of me over and over and over until they suddenly stop.

"OI. LEAVE HIM ALONE!" I hear someone yells.

I hear them run away.

I look up slowly, uncurling my arms from around my face.

A woman is standing with a spikes blond haired boy beside her.

"Are you ok?" She asks.

I quickly. Get up a nd grab my bag before sprinting away

---time skip---

They do this every morning now. They beat me. Choke me. Burn me. Spit on me. Cut me.

Then I get to shool and voltron do the same. Somehow worse.

Then I go home and my father does the same.

Then i do it to myself...

I'm so tired....

I can't do this forever.

The cuts don't work anymore.

I'm just so... so fucking tired.

I walk numbly home from school everything is bruised and cut and burnt and hurt in general.

I walk inge my door. I let my.dad hit me around. He knocks me against a table and my head hits it with with a horrible crunch. His kicks make more crunches.

Break me...

Please just kill me

I don't even cry anymore. I don't beg or scream. I just stay silent.

Once he's finished i stagger upstairs to my room. I pull out a blade and tear at my skin... blood dripping everywhere. I take off my shirt and write word after word on my skin. I destroy my legs too. And my hands and my feet and my shoulders and even my face until I'm a mass of deep cuts.

I take out a piece of paper and a pen and start to write. Blood drips on the page but I ignore it.

I write:

Dear friends and family. Not that I have much... i mean any of either of those things left.

I love you guys.
Even voltron and lotors gang... and even my papa.
I love my siblings even though you don't love me. I just needed to say it one last time... i love you too mama.

I'm writing this because I'm tired.... so so tired... i cant handle it anymore. I'm tired of living. I just can't. Everything do is wrong. I can't feel anything anymore... i suppose you'll figure that out when you find my body....

I'm just so tired...

I dont want to keep on living on my own... i dont want to keep breathing just for the air to be taken from my lungs by the people I care about.

This is the only way for you guys to be unburdened by me.

And voltron... i didnt do those things... but if you want to believe I did that's OK... I'm dead now it doesn't matter.

I'm sorry to everyone.
I'm sorry.
Im sorry you couldn't trust me.
I'm sorry you had to beat me up to show me how worthless I am.
I'm sorry you had to waste effort on me.
I'm sorry I'm weak.
I'm sorry for being alive.
I'm sorry I didn't do this sooner....

Anyway... bloodloss is getting to me... i need to go now... forever. But thank you guys for everything. I love you all. I'm sorry...

Love... Lance.

I get up and get my rope from under my bed. I tie it into a noose and tie it up.

I get on a stool and slip my head into it.

I stand there. Letting the blood drip from my body and to the floor.

And then I kick the stool

Ok so yesterday was my birthday!!!! And lances birthday!!!! Cause we have the same birthday!!!! (28/7) hehe. Anyway this is something I've wanted to do for and while but i wrote it in less then an hour so it's probably shit... on and its 1 am.
Anyway enjoy
-fox
Also I got 1k reads and I am a happy bun!!