I'm Broken but I'm fine

Part 23

LOUIS POV

Three weeks later and I'm back at the apartment doing home schooling. I've still got issues with my chest but my pneumonia is gone and my lungs got the all clear. My kidney suffered some damage but it was minor and Andy said I should be fine. I've managed to work out how to function on two hours sleep, I can successfully have that amount of sleep without a nightmare, anymore and the nightmares come back full force and it's haunting. The boys all think I'm sleeping well and think I'm improving, I just never let them notice I don't sleep. Harry is always asleep when I'm awake so he would never know.

I'm sat at the kitchen table, finishing a maths sheet, sipping on a Red Bull.

"You know those things will kill you right" Harry tells me as he walks into the kitchen and leans down to place a kiss on my head.

I grumble at him and he chuckles.

"Have you not been sleeping? I've noticed you have taken a liking to these energy drinks" Harry asks innocently.

"No, I'm fine, just like the taste" I lie.

Harry hums and walks to the kitchen to make some lunch. I look back at my maths problem and try to make sense if it.

"Need some help babes?" Zayn asks as he sits opposite me at the table with his laptop, pulling up some work.

The truth is, I have read the same problem over and over. I can't concentrate and I'm really struggling, I don't want to fall asleep again and Im starting to get a little upset and angry.

"No, I can do it myself" I snap at Zayn.

He looks at me curiously, I never get short with him.

"Louis William, don't talk to Zayn like that, he is just trying to help you" Harry scolds me.

"Don't call me that" I snap back at Harry.

"Then don't act like that Louis" Harry says sternly.

"It's okay H, I know Louis wouldn't speak to me like that if there wasn't something bothering him" Zayn says, as a cue to get me to talk. I don't bite though and huff and go back to my maths sheet.

Zayn and Harry exchange glances at each other.

We sit in silence for a while and about five minutes later my eyes start drooping, I rest my head on the table and before I can help myself I'm asleep.

HARRYS POV

I watch from the kitchen as Louis rests his head on the table and his eyes shut. He thinks none of us have noticed him not sleeping these last three weeks. We all know he stays awake after we all fall asleep. The amount of energy drinks he is consuming is ridiculous, it doesn't take a genius to figure out why.

"Finally given into the urge I see" Andy says walking into the kitchen and grabbing a water from the fridge.

"Not without a fight" I say.

"Poor kid, he really shouldn't be drinking those things you know H" Andy tells me.

I hold my hands up in surrender.

"I can't ban him, it's his only way of coping right now" I tell Andy.

"He was watching TV until 5am this morning, until I came down to make breakfast, he pretended he was sleeping" Zayn says.

I sigh, I don't know how else to help Louis.

"Well he can't go on like this forever, once he figures that out and confronts his dreams he should start being able to sleep. Until then though....." Andy says sighing.