I'm Broken but I'm fine

Part 6

HARRYS POV.

"Well, I think that went swimmingly" I say sarcastically to Andy.

He chuckles at me.

"Actually H, it did. Louis opened up about what's being going on and that is the first step" Andy tells me.

"Yeah but now he's angry at me.....again" I say.

"He will come round H, it must have been hard for him to confess everything he just did. He is embarrassed and insecure. He is going to be really defensive, just give him space and time you will see" Andy smiles at me.

"Thanks Andy, you are a great friend, I would be going crazy without you!" I tell him.

"Haha I'm sure you would figure it out without me, but I'm glad I'm here and can help. I know Louis means a lot to you and the boys and I think he is a great kid" he says.

He starts packing up his medical bag and we start to head downstairs, I'm stopped by Andy before we get to the top of the stairs though.

"Oh and H, just a warning. Louis thinks you left him because you are disgusted at him being gay"

I gasp at Andy's comment.

"Shit...I know he.....mentioned it before." I say stunned he told Andy.

"Yeah, just.....I think it's time you told him the truth" Andy winks at me and continues down the stairs.

I run my hands over my face, I feel terrible that Louis thinks I hated him for five years, I'm such an idiot to even think he wouldn't be affected by my behaviour. I regret it so much. I need to find the right time and place and tell Louis the truth. I can't let him keep thinking those awful thoughts.

LOUIS POV

I'm furious as I head downstairs to the lounge room. My head is still sore and I still feel a bit sick and on top of all of that I'm mad at Harry and Andy. I know they care but I hate when people judge me, especially behind my back. I know I cut but it doesn't mean I want to die, it helps with feeling in control and helps when I feel trapped and my emotions get to much, it's my way of coping and I need it. I'm not going to ever change that and no one can ever find out about it.

I storm into the lounge room and the boys are all playing some car game on the TV. I plonk myself down on the couch.

"Hey buddy, how are you feeling?" Liam pauses the game to ask.

"I'm fine!" I spit upset.

"Mmmmmm you seem fine" Zayn chuckles and I glare back at him.

"Come here babes and give uncle Z a cuddle" Zayn says.

He grabs my upper arm playfully and ignores the slight flinch I have when he reaches out. He pulls me against him and I cuddle into his side. He smells so comforting, not like Harry but still safe. His arm snakes around my body and settles on my hip.

"Comfy?" He asks and I hum in response.

He frowns at me and reaches his left hand out to feel my forehead. I swat his hand away but not before he gets the answer to his internal question.

"Liam, Lou's burning up again can you grab him some medicine?" He asks nicely.

"Sure" Liam smiles and goes into the kitchen to get me some tablets.

"Are you sure Andy was happy to take out that drip?" Niall asks.

"It's out isn't it? I said I'm fine" I snap at Niall.

Before he can retaliate Liam comes back into the room and hands me my medicine. I take it because I don't want to argue.

"Keep that water Louis, I want you to drink one of those an hour" Andy says as he and Harry come down the stairs.