I'm Broken but I'm fine

Part 12

LOUIS POV

When I wake up, my head is throbbing and I feel so weak. I open my eyes and I'm met with a dimly lit room, there is a constant beeping next to me and I feel oxygen tubes in my nose. I search the room for Harry or Andy or one of the boys but they aren't there, the room is empty. I begin to worry, what if they left me, what if they sent me away. The beeping noise is getting louder, I sit up in the bed just as a nurse and my mum and Anne rush into the room.

"Oh Louis, thank god" my mum says as she brings me into her arms. I go willingly seeking the comfort. I want Harry though, as much as I've missed my mum.

"You gave us quite a scare sweetheart" Anne says joining in on the hug.

"How are you feeling Louis?" The nurse Ashley asks me smiling.

"I'm okay, tired" I tell her.

She nods and sets to checking my vitals and writing things down in a folder.

"I want Harry" I tell my mum and Anne.

They smile knowingly at me.

"He has just gone home to pack you a bag honey, he will be back really soon" Anne tells me.

"He promised he wouldn't leave me..... I want him" I say on the verge of tears.

"We know Lou, it's okay. Harry and Andy filled us in on everything and when we get home Harry can come and visit you whenever he can okay" my mum says.

"Wha.....what do you mean when we get home? I'm going back with Harry aren't I, you said I'd be there for the summer" I panic.

"Louis, with everything that's happened, We both think it's best for you to come home, we need to keep an eye on you" my mum says.

"No, I'm not a child, I don't need to be watched....I don't want to go with you, please" I panic.

"Calm down Louis, we are your parents and know what's best for you" my mum says.

"No, I want Harry get Harry now!" I yell.

"He isn't back yet Lou, just relax" Anne tries.

"I want Andy then, get Andy please I want.....I want" I say trying to breathe.

"I'll page Dr Samuels" the nurse says quickly exiting to get Andy.

"Just relax Louis" Anne says.

"No, just leave me alone, please....." I rasp out.

Andy then rushes into the room, I've never seen him in his white coat and scrubs before he looks intimidating.

"Hey there kiddo, just relax buddy. Harry is on his way" Andy says as he approaches the bed.

"I.......I don't want to go Andy.." I struggle to say.

He turns to my mum and Anne and he says something calmly to them and they nod and leave the room.

"Okay Louis, deep breathes bud, tell me what's happened" he says to me, sitting next to me on the bed and putting his arms around my shoulder to comfort me.

"They want to take me home with them, but I want to stay with Harry, I don't want to leave" I say.

"I need to cut Andy I want to cut please...." I say.

"Good job Louis, that's great work, now listen to me. Cutting is not going to help you deal with this is it?' It may help for a little while but we still have to sort this out don't we" he says to me.

It's true, I still have to face this, cutting will help me deal with it though.

"But it helps me" I say.