I'm Broken but I'm fine

Part 9

LOUIS POV

Noah and I make our way to the carpark and to his car, he drives a brand new BMW, My jaw falls open. How can a 19 year old afford this car. Harry has an expensive car but he also has a very high paying job and is 23. I hear Noah chuckle at me.

"It was a going away present from Jaxson. Our parents are pretty loaded and Jaxson works for my dad" Noah tells me.

I nod at him in understanding.

"Wow, it's so nice, Jaxson sounds like an awesome brother" I say, a bit of jealousy in my voice.

"Yeah, he is the best" Noah says as we both get in the car.

We buckle up and Noah starts driving.

"So Louis, does Harry always talk to you that way?" He asks gently.

I look at Noah and my eyes widen, he is looking at me sadly and I hate it.

"Um, like.......I......yeah, he hates me" I sigh shakily.

"But, why Lou? I don't understand?" Noah says perplexed.

I sigh, I may as well tell Noah, I'd like to be his friend and I should start with why I'm hated so much.

"Well, we used to be really close, Harry was my world, I loved him....I still do, but. When I was about 13 I realised I was gay, I had a crush on Harry and I know it's not right, we aren't blood related or anything but I don't know.....anyway, I came out to my family and since then Harry just, distanced himself. he didn't talk to me anymore and that year he left with the boys for college. I tried to call him and I needed him so bad, especially when I came out to my friends at school. He didn't want anything to do with me though, he ignored me and my calls and I didn't see him for five years. When I turned up last week, he was so nice and I thought we could be close again, he said that's what he wanted but then......he changed, he is so mean to me now. I still disgust him and he hates me" I say and let out a breath at the end.

Noah is silent for a minute processing what I just said.

"But that doesn't make sense, Harry knows I'm gay and he doesn't hate me?" He says.

So Harry does know Noah is gay, so it's me personally he doesn't like. Just like everyone I know Harry hates me because I'm me.

"Well, I guess it's me then, he doesn't like that his brother is gay, he doesn't like me" I say sadly.

"I'm sure that's not it Lou, I've known Harry for a while and I don't think he could hate anybody" Noah tells me.

"Yeah....I dunno" I shrug.

It's silent for awhile in the car before Noah talks.

"I'm hungry, do you want to stop and get something to eat? I know a great place." Noah asks.

"Um okay" I say.

Harry is already shitty at me, so if he gets mad that I didn't go straight home it will be nothing different. He won't find out anyway, he's to busy working and he won't call me to check in. We pull up to a nice looking diner and we walk inside, Noah requests a booth and we sit down. The waitress passes us a menu each and we look it over. I'm not hungry but I should probably try and eat something. Noah orders a burger and I order a salad, I end up just pushing most of it around my plate and only eat half of it. Noah and I talk a lot and we get to know each other more, it turns out we have a lot in common and I really really like Noah.

When we are paying the bill and leaving the restaurant, Noah seems to tense up. When we step outside the diner we see a group of guys hanging around Noah's car.