I'm Broken but I'm fine

Part 22

"Haz"I croak.

I see Andy relax behind Harry and Harry breaths a sigh of relief.

"Good job baby, you're back now shhhh it's okay" he say and he brings me into his arms.

"I saw Noah" I blurt out.

Harry stills and he breaks our hug and holds my arms to look at me.

"In your dream?" Harry asks.

I nod.

Harry looks and Andy and I don't miss the look they give each other.

"He told me it's my fault, he asked me why I didn't save him" I tell them both.

"No, Louis, no. There is nothing you could have done sweetheart, nothing" Harry tells me.

I don't argue, it's pointless. Instead I just relax in Harry's arms.

"Let's get you back to bed Lou, it's 3am you need to rest" Andy tells me.

I shake my head no and pull away from Harry,

"No, Im not closing my eyes ever again, No!" I say.

"Louis" Harry says sternly.

"No, I couldn't come back, I couldn't break from the dream. I tried and it was so haunting and terrifying I can't do it again. What if I never come back? I can't do it" I sob.

"I'll never let that happen baby. I will always help you come back to me" Harry says, he grabs my cheeks and he thumbs my tears away and kisses my forehead.

"If you don't want to sleep Lou, why don't you sit on the chair and we can put the TV on hey" Andy pipes up from behind Harry.

I look at him and nod, yes, TV sounds good right now.

"Okay, I need to hook you back up, but before I do, why don't you go have a shower with Harry and calm down a little hmmm" Andy says kindly.

"That's a great idea, let's get you into some fresh clothes, that will make you feel better" Harry smiles.

He then lifts me up like a child and I wrap my legs around his waist and snuggle into his neck. He rubs my back and takes me into the bathroom. He closes the door and then sets me down on the sink while he turns the water on to the right temperature. He then helps me undress, my body is weak and I feel utterly shattered. When I'm naked Harry quickly undresses himself and leads me into the shower and under the spray of water, he turns me around so my back is against his chest and he holds me. I grip his forearm tightly as it snakes around my body.

"Make me forget Harry, please" I whisper.

Harry's breath hitches

"Are you sure you are okay with that Lou?"

"Please" I beg and I close my eyes to hold back my tears.

"Okay baby I've got you, I'll take good care of you darling" Harry whispers into my ears.

"What's your code word sweetheart" Harry whispers as his hands start navigating all over my body.

I moan and let my head fall back and relax against Harry's shoulder.

"Words Louis, you know this by now" Harry says gently but with authority.

"Blue" I whisper.

"Good boy" he praises.

Harry continues to explore my body with his hands and I'm putty in his embrace as I try to forget my nightmares and focus on Harry and how he makes me feel. He starts kisses and sucking at my neck and I'm breathless,the hot water making everything heightened. Harry's hands then make their way down to my thighs. My cock is beginning to harden and I can feel Harry's hard on behind me. I grind against it.