I'm Broken but I'm fine

Part 21

"All I keep thinking about is his brother, Jaxson when he heard the news...." I start.

"I know, I was the one who called him. He was a mess" Harry says stroking my hair.

Tears sting my eyes at the thought.

"He wanted you to come to the funeral" Harry says carefully.

"He did?? When.....when is it?" I ask

"Tomorrow" Harry says.

"Can I go?"

"I don't think so baby, I'm so sorry. You aren't well enough to leave the hospital" Harry says.

I let the tears fall at the news, I really wanted to say goodbye to Noah.

I silently cry trying to breathe without coughing, Harry just holds me and I exhaust myself. Andy chooses then to come into the room.

"Well, isn't this a cute sight to see" he says smiling.

"I was just about to put him back to bed, the oxygen doesn't reach" Harry says.

My body chooses that time to betray me and I have a coughing fit in Harry's arms.

"It hurts" I cry, as I can't stop coughing.

I start to panic as my chest heaves up and down trying to catch my breath.

"It's okay, just breathe Louis, we won't let anything happen too you" Andy says. He kneels down in front of us on the chair, grabs the big oxygen mask rather than the tubes.

"Just put this one on until you catch your breath okay" he says as he slips the mask over my mouth, Harry taking over and holding it against me.

I slowly begin to breathe normally again.

"Thats it Lou, next time just buzz me hmmm, there is an extension for the nasal tubes" Andy smiles. He grabs them and replaces the mask with the tubes in my nose. He then grabs a fresh blanket from the cupboard and lays it over us.

"You can stay there now" he smiles.

I smile back at him and Harry mouths a "thank you" to Andy who winks at Harry. Andy goes to checking everything on the machines.

"Andy?" I ask.

"Yeah bud?" He smiles.

"Can I go to Noah's funeral tomorrow?" I ask.

"Oh bud, I'm so sorry. I wish I could say yes but your vitals are still low and you still need the drains. You still have pneumonia too. I know it's really important to you Lou. I just can't risk it though bud" he tells me sympathetically.

I nod and just rest against Harry. His touch relaxing me enough to fall asleep against him.

It's noon before I wake again, I slept dream free with Harry and I wake still in his arms. There is an empty tray of food next to Harry and he is reading again, stroking my hair as he concentrates on the pages. He looks adorable, the way his nose scrunches up and he frowns a little at what he is reading. He notices me staring and turns and smiles at me.

"Hi there sleepy" he says.

"Hi, sorry I slept so long, are you uncomfortable?" I say worriedly.

Harry chuckles.

"I'm fine baby, I love having you in my arms, best sleep I've had in ages. Andy made sure I was well fed too" he smiles.

I smile back at him.

He leans down and kisses me and I blush.

"You need to eat too angel" he tells me.

I sigh as I sit up,