I'm Broken but I'm fine

Part 21

I lift my head off Harry's chest to look at them.

"Really?" I ask croakily.

"Yes, while you were asleep and we thought we had lost you, we realised that Harry is what you need right now. We will support you both" Anne says.

"Harry has arranged for you to do your last year of school at home here in London, it will take a bit of time to recover and we thought with everything you have been through its best if you complete your work from home" my mum says.

I smile

"Really?" I say stunned., turning to look at Harry.

"Really, you're all mine now" he winks.

I blush and Zayn and Andy chuckle.

"Thank you mum" I say.

She nods knowingly at me.

Harry pulls me closer and I bury my head in his chest, his smell engulfs me and I feel safe, happy and loved and I want nothing more than to stay with him forever.

"I'm tired" I say yawning.

"You're body needs rest Lou, sleep as much as you can" Andy tells me.

"I won't leave your side baby" Harry tells me.

I can't keep my eyes open any longer and I drift off to sleep in Harry's arms.

When I wake up next it's dark, there is a small light on to the left of me and Harry is sprawled out in a recliner chair reading, never leaving my side. When I bolt awake from my nightmare he is there to comfort me.

"I'm sorry, I'm sorry" I force through my ragged breathing.

"It's okay, don't panic. You are safe, you're with me now" Harry tells me.

I go to climb off the bed, I want to snuggle with Harry on the recliner.

"What are you doing baby?" He ask me.

"Can I sit with you?" I ask.

Harry beams

"I don't know if the tubes will reach but we can try" Harry says.

All the tubes reach apart from my oxygen, I take it off though much to Harry's distress.

"You need to leave it on Lou, it's helping you" he says.

"Please just ten minutes Haz, I promise I'll put it back on then" I ask innocently pouting at him.

Harry sighs.

"Okay but one slight cough and it's back on, got it" he says.

"Promise" I tell him.

I curl up in Harry's lap and snuggle into him, he wraps his arms around me tightly.

"You okay?" He asks me.

"No, all of this is my fault and I can't help but think it should have been me Haz. Noah and Nick didn't deserve to die" I say quietly

"Louis, I know this is hard to deal with and its traumatic and what you saw happen you should never be exposed too, I understand you feel guilty but that doesn't mean it should have been you. You deserve to live just as much as they did. None of this should of happened and thinking that it's your fault makes it all in vain. Do you think that Noah would want you lying here thinking those thoughts?" Harry says.

"I don't know what Noah would have wanted Harry, he isn't here" I snap

"I know baby and that's not fair and I cannot apologise enough to you Lou, it's going to take a while to come to terms with it all but I promise you the nightmares will go away" Harry says.