I'm Broken but I'm fine

Part 21

"I know, that is the fluid in his lungs, the oxygen will help" Andy says as he places a mask over Louis face.

I nod and settle back down to watch over Louis for the rest of the night. Nothing happens all night and when mum and Jay come back the next day nothing has changed. Andy still assures us it's a good sign and we just have to be patient.

"Come on baby, just come back to me...please" I tell him as I kiss his cheek.

LOUIS POV

I wake up slowly, my chest is heavy and tight but I can breathe a lot better than before. I can hear beeping and I know I'm in a hospital. There is something covering my face and I can feel tubes all over me, it's annoying. My eyes are heavy as I try to move my body and open my eyes, I whimper. My body is sore and my chest aches badly. My memories come back to me and I remember Noah and drowning and I panic, Noah. I need to get back to Noah. I can hear the beeping sound getting louder and louder.

"Lou?" I hear Harry's gorgeous voice call to me.

"Haz" I wheeze.

"Hey Angel, you're okay" Harry tells me. I feel his hands carding through my hair.

"Noah" I say croakily.

"I know Lou, we need you to relax though angel just relax and breathe" Harry tells me gently.

"Lou, buddy can you open your eyes for me?" That's Andy's voice.

I do as I'm told and slowly open my eyes. I come face to face with a smiling Harry and Andy.

"There he is" Andy says grinning.

Harry reaches out and strokes my hair off my forehead. I slowly lift my mask off my face so I can talk clearer, Andy reaches out and helps me. I cough, it hurts and I scrunch my face up at the pain.

"I'm sorry Lou, you'll be sore for a while" Andy tells me.

"What happened?" I ask tiredly.

The last thing I remember is struggling to breathe, trying to get to sleep.

"We nearly lost you again is what happened" Harry says seriously.

"You suffered something we call secondary drowning, where the lungs fill up with fluid and you drown from the inside. We are lucky we got you to the hospital in time" Andy says.

That's why I couldn't breathe, thank god for Harry and Andy, I probably would have died in my sleep if they hadn't of come to get me.

"Am I okay?" I ask.

"Yeah, you will be, we are still draining some fluid off your lungs and you have developed pneumonia but you are responding well. You have been out for four days" Andy says.

"I'm sorry" I say, I don't know why I feel the need to apologise.

"Don't be sorry baby" Harry tells me gently.

I don't know why but I start to cry, my emotions getting the better of me.

"Hey little one, don't cry. Everything is going to be fine" Harry reassures me.

"Is Noah really gone?" I ask Harry.

Him and Andy look at each other and then at me sympathetically.

"Yes baby, we are so sorry sweetheart" Harry says and I choke on my tears.

I struggle to breathe, I knew the answer but I needed Harry to say it again. I just want Noah back so badly, why did he have to die.

"Oh Lou" I hear from the doorway. Zayn walks in and he reaches for me, I sit up a tiny bit and crash into his arms.

"I'm sorry Lou, I'm so sorry kiddo. If I could take it back I would, we all would" Zayn tells me. Harry sits on the bed next to me and rubs my back while I hug Zayn.