I'm Broken but I'm fine

Part 21

"Harry, you have to understand" my mum tries.

"I don't mum, I'm sorry I just don't understand. I love this kid to death, I would do anything and everything for him and I know every single one of those boys over there would do the same. He is one of us now and he is not going home with you" I say venomously.

"You're right Harry, we never saw what you did. We were so caught up in our lives and working so much we neglected Louis. We tried to help him but all he did was push us away and we let him. You though, you and the boys fought for him and you pushed and pushed until he told you everything. You are the ones who saved him and I will forever be thankful to you....please forgive me, forgive us Harry" Jay says to me

I look towards her and I see a distraught looking mother, worried endlessly about her son. I know she loves Louis and she thought she was doing the right thing, she came from a good place. I just wish she would have listened to me. I know she means every word of what she just said to me and for Louis sake and the sake of my family I know I will forgive her.

I let a few tears slip as Jay comes over to me. I stand up to face her.

"Nothing is more important than him" I start...pointing to Louis.

"He comes first for me, the boys and for you and mum! Louis is number one and you need to remember that" I tell her bluntly.

"I know Harry" she tells me.

"Nothing comes close in my life and I will be here for as long as he will have me, I will fight for him and love him forever. I need him just as much as he needs me. This kid has changed my life and I want nothing more than to give him the world.......please just let me Jay....please" I say looking her in the eyes.

She looks back at me and smiles slightly.

"Okay....I know you love him Harry, I can see how much you both mean to each other. He.......he can stay with you and the boys. I want him to be happy, I want him to get better. I want you both to be happy" she tells me.

I sigh with relief as we both hug each other tight. I'm so thankful we have resolved this and Louis is now mine, he can stay with us permanently and I couldn't be happier. We pull back and we settle down in the room and we wait, we wait for Louis to show some sign of waking, we wait for him to come back to us and I pray to God he does.

Two days later and Louis is still out and has now developed pneumonia, Andy says it's okay and is treating it with antibiotics. He says two days is normal to be asleep for, anymore than three to four though and we need to look at possible permanent damage. I can't even think of that and I push the thoughts aside as I sit beside Louis bed. I only leave to go to the toilet or shower in the ensuite provided. The boys have been making sure I'm fed and I'm grateful, they don't pressure me to leave either, they know I won't. They just support me in being where I need to be. Mum and Jay got a hotel and come back during the day and leave at night.

It's 7:30 on the third night, I'm talking to Louis like usual when he starts choking on the tube in his mouth. I press the call button and a nurse and Andy come in. Andy seems relieved to see Louis like this,

"Louis?, it's okay relax, we are taking the tube out of your throat now" Andy tells Louis.

Louis coughs and splutters when the tube comes out but he doesn't wake. His breathing is fast and wheezy.

"Is he okay?" I panic

"This is a great sign H, Louis is breathing on his own, he doesn't need the tube now. This should mean he will wake up soon" Andy tells me.

I let out a huge breath of relief and Andy and I smile at each other. These last three days have been so stressful.

"He's not breathing right though" I say when I turn back to Louis and see him struggling.