I'm Broken but I'm fine

Part 20

I wake all through the night with nightmares and coughing fits, I feel horrible and I want to call Harry, I realise it's 1am but I don't care. I crawl out of bed and over to my bag. I look at my phone and see I've got three missed calls from Harry. I dial his number without hesitation.

"Baby" he answers with relief.

"Haz" I cough.

"Are you okay, I was worried Lou, you weren't picking up" he tells me.

"I'm sorry, I had a shower and went to bed I don't feel well" I tell him.

"Andy has been called into work but he and I are coming tomorrow... okay baby, we will be there soon" Harry tells me.

I relax knowing he is coming for me.

"Did mum and Jay take you to the hospital?" Harry asks.

"No, they just brought me home, I'm so tired but the nightmares Haz.....its Noah and Nick and I miss him already and I don't want him to be dead Harry. I can't stop thinking about it. He was protecting me, he made sure I was warm and safe in that cave and they killed him and it's not fair" I say trying to breathe, my tears streaming down my face.

"I know Louis, I know it's not fair and Noah was a great friend but this isn't your fault okay. None of this is your fault. When I get there I will help you, we all will, I'll be there in less than 24 hours" he tells me.

My crying gets heavier.

"I don't think I can wait that long, I'm so tired. I can't...." I say and I have another coughing fit over the phone.

"Louis, did that cough just start?" Harry asks.

I catch my breath before I respond.

"Yeah like a few hours ago" I say.

"Lou, we need you to be checked out" Harry tells me.

"Can you come now...please Haz" I ask desperately.

"I can't little one, I will come as soon as I can I promise" he tells me.

"Okay" I say quietly.

"Try and get some sleep baby and I will be there before you know it okay. I love you"

"I love you too Haz, so much" I tell him

We say our goodbyes and I crawl back into bed.

My night is terrible, my cough gets worse and so do my nightmares.

HARRYS POV

I end the call to Louis and dial Andy.

"Hey mate everything okay?" He asks when he picks up.

"Yeah, just got a call from Louis, mum and Jay didn't take him to the hospital" I say upset.

"I knew it, fuck Haz" he says.

"Andy, I know you wouldn't be this upset if there wasn't something to worry about" I say

He sighs

"There is something called secondary drowning or dry drowning. It can happen after a near drowning incident, it's when the lungs fill with water and the patient literally drowns from the inside" Andy tells me.

"Fuck" I say.

"I finish in three hours Haz, we will make it to doncaster by sunrise okay" he tells me.

I nod even though he can't see me. We hang up and I gather our stuff together. I don't sleep much instead I worry and pace the house for the next three and a half hours until Andy walks in the door. He is still in his blue scrubs and looks a little tired.