I'm Broken but I'm fine

Part 19

He stops next to Noah's body bag on the ground.

"No!!!!" He croaks and falls to his knees.

"Noah, please wake up, please" Louis begs, tears falling down his cheeks.

I come up behind him and bend down, I reach out and hug him from behind.

"It's okay Lou, it's okay" I tell him.

"No!!! Bring him back Harry please" he yells at me. It completely breaks my heart.

"Little one, I'm so sorry" I tell him as I crush him too me. He sobs into my chest.

"I don't want him to die, why did he have to die. I can't do this... I hate it. It should have been me" Louis yells.

I pull him closer and all I can do is comfort him as he lashes out and hits me and punches his feelings out onto my chest.

"Shhhhhhh, angel, it's all going to be okay" I comfort him.

Everyone around us is silent and are watching on with heavy hearts.

Zayn, Niall, Liam and Andy all walk over and fall to the ground around us. There are no words said but everyone reaches out to comfort Louis in some way. We sit there for god knows how long as Louis begins to relax and exhausts himself out. His eyes start to close as he is to tired to stay awake. I look to Andy as if to make sure he is okay to fall asleep. Andy smiles slightly at me.

"After that outburst he is fine, he can sleep now" Andy tells me.

Andy puts the mask back on Louis and I stand up again with him in my arms. The blankets are put back on top of him and we make our way out of the forest.

I don't know how Louis is going to cope with Noah's death. Noah was the one person Louis could really relate too and they had such a nice bond.

We make it back to the cabin and I can see our mums waiting anxiously on the porch. When they see us they rush forward.

"Is he okay Harry what happened?" Jay asks.

"He is okay, he nearly drowned, fell into the water. We got him back he is okay" I tell them.

They don't say anything as we rush inside and put Louis on the couch.

"Al can you get Louis some warm clothes" I ask him.

"Already done, Niall called in it" Al says as he hands me some clean sweats and a jumper for Louis. I smile in response and bend down next to Louis and go to start changing him, but my hands are swatted away.

"Don't touch him" Jay snaps at me,

I'm stunned.

"Jay, I...." I start.

"No, this is all your fault Harry, none of this would have happened if you weren't involved" she spits.

"I would never hurt Louis Jay, I love him" I tell her.

She ignores me and attends to Louis.

"We are taking him home" she tells us.

"Jay, Louis really needs a hospital, he needs to get checked out" Andy tells her.

"You said he was fine, he just needs rest, we can take care of him at home" Jay tells Andy.

My mum is quiet in the corner, I look to her pleadingly.

"Harry, I can see how much you love him but he needs to be at home" my mum tells me.

"Thats bullshit, be at home so you two can both leave him alone while you work. So you can both turn a blind eye to his needs and the abuse he receives at school?" I yell harshly.

My work colleagues have never seen me like this, so emotional. They have never seen me care about someone so much. They just look on speechless.

"Harry, he needs to learn to deal with this all..without you" Jay says harshly.

"No he doesn't, he has come so far with us, all of us. He needs to stay" I say angrily.

"So his life can be put in even more danger? No. He is coming home and that is final. I suggest you end whatever you have with him" Jay says.

She turns to Alberto and asks him to take Louis to the car, Louis is still sopping wet and it angers me that they don't even care enough to change him, Al complies and I watch as Louis is unknowingly taken away from me. I race after Al out the front of the cabin as my mum and Jay gather their things. Al turns to me and motions with his hand and I see he has Louis phone, he slips it into his pocket and I nod gratefully at him. I hear my mum and Jay behind me and I turn around anger seeping through my body. I see the boys gathered on the porch and mum and Jay coming down the stairs.

"You do realise he just watched his best friend get a bullet through the head right? You do realise he will need support and counselling, to talk to someone about what he has been through" I snap at them.

"Harry is right and I'm telling you now, Louis needs to get checked out and okayed before he can go home Jay" Andy steps in to say, walking towards us.

"We will have him checked out when we reach Doncaster" Jay tells us.

"Harry I love you, I really do but you need to let Louis go. He is 17, innocent and vulnerable he needs to work out his life and I don't think you should be apart of that romantically. When we sent him to you we had no idea you two would develop feelings for each other, if we had we wouldn't have okayed it. I'm sorry Harry" my mum says.

They both walk past us and I turn to see Alberto close the car door after laying Louis against the back seat. I watch on with so much frustration and anger at the two people who should have mine and Louis best interests at heart, take him away. The car disappears and I let out a frustrated yell, I pick up a rock and throw it harshly. My breathing ragged. Everyone is staring at me.

"Clean up here boys, I'm heading back" I say to the officers and the other detectives.

I walk back inside and Andy approaches me.

"H, you and I need to go to Doncaster. I have a bad feeling and I didn't get a chance to check Louis over properly and he needs to be checked" Andy tells me seriously.

I turn around and look at him.

"You read my mind Andz, let's head back to London, grab our things and head to Doncaster. If they are taking Louis from me, then I'll just have to bring myself to Louis" I say.

I won't let them take Louis away from me, I love Louis and I will stop at nothing to make sure he is protected and looked after.