I'm Broken but I'm fine

Part 17

"I......I......I haven't" Louis says quietly and he lifts his sleeves up to show us.

I smile so big and Andy's grin is big enough to split his face.

"Wow, Louis, I am just so proud of you. That is a really really big achievement and you should be so so proud of yourself" Andy says.

"Baby, you are truly amazing, well done. I can't even tell you how proud I am of you" I tell him holding him close.

"I......wanted to though, the thoughts were there and I nearly did today, that's....that's why I came here. If I hadn't of come I know I would have ended up with the blade and I didn't know whether I would have stopped" Louis tells us.

I gasp and Andy and I share a look.

"No baby, no, you always come to me yeah, or I will drop everything and come to you" I tell him.

"You did the right thing Louis, coming here. Well done" Andy tells him.

"Now, eating and sleeping, doing neither I assume?" Andy says lightheartedly.

Louis nods his head.

"I have nightmares every time my eyes shut and I can't do that anymore. Eating just doesn't feel right" Louis tells us.

Andy sighs.

"Well you look worse than when I first met you kid. I'm going to give you something to help you sleep, it will knock you out for a good eight hours okay" Andy tells Louis.

Louis tenses in my arms and shakes his head.

"No, no, no, Andy no. I can't close my eyes, I don't want to please" he begs getting worked up.

"Hey, Louis, we are all here, I promise you are safe baby. Nothing is going to happen to you" I reassure him.

"It's a heavy drug Lou, you won't even dream I promise" Andy says.

My hold on Louis tightens and he nods at Andy. Andy fills up a needle and gives it to Louis in his arm, the drug works immediately and Louis is out instantaneously.

"He should get a good sleep now H, you can take him up to bed if you like" Andy tells me.

"Thanks Andy" I say.

He smiles, at me and starts packing up his kit.

"How long is he here for?" He asks with a sigh.

"I'm supposed to put him on a train tomorrow, I will drive him home myself though. I don't want to risk another train journey, Stinger is still out there. I'm sure he already knows Louis is back" I tell Andy.

"H" Zayn says, him, Niall and Liam hurry into the room.

"What's wrong?" I ask noticing the look on Zayn's face.

"Another body has washed up, Noah and Jaxson's 24 year old cousin" Zayn says.

"Shit, where are Noah and Jaxson now?" I ask.

"Still in hiding, Jaxson in New York and Noah at the Cabin. The gang are trying to draw them out of hiding H" Liam says.

My arms tighten on Louis, this is not good. If they don't take the bait Louis could be next, but if they do come out of hiding they are risking their own lives.

"Fuck!" I say frustratingly.

"He can't go home H" Niall says seriously, motioning to Louis.

"I know" I say.

"I'll take him into hiding myself" I say.

"You can't do that H, that's too obvious and they know you and will follow you. Let's get Ben to arrange someone else, someone he trusts" Liam says.

That means I have to let Louis go again, he will be safe though until we catch Stinger and that's all I want. I don't want to leave him but I have to make sure he is safe, his safety comes first. The boys and I will know where he is at all times though, we just can't be with him.

"Yeah organise it boys, just please make sure Ben does it personally" I tell them.

"Of course Harry" Zayn assures me.

I nod and then go to move Louis slowly. I pick him up gently and take him upstairs to our bedroom. I tuck him under the sheets safely and go to make the call to our parents. They have no choice in the matter now, Louis is in danger and this needs to be done to keep him safe.

Louis ends up sleeping for 14 hours, Andy isn't worried and says his body is recovering. The boys have organised Louis to be taken to where Noah is hiding out. It's 11am now and patrol will be showing up to take him in an hour and he hasn't even been told. Mum and Jay took the news hard, they were angry that I've put Louis life in danger but agreed he needed to be kept safe.

It's five past 11 when Louis makes his way down the stairs in boxers and my navy jumper, it's far too big but he is adorable and I'm going to miss him so much. He still looks tired and thin and his bruises are more prominent today.

"Morning Baby, how did you sleep?" I ask him as he crawls into my lap on the couch.

"Good, didn't dream, it was so nice" he says tiredly.

"I'm glad" I say hugging him mad kissing his head.

"Do I......do I have to go home today?" He asks and winces when he sits up and stretches.

I sigh.

"Listen, we need to have a chat" I tell him reaching out and swiping a piece of hair off his forehead.

"I don't like your chats Haz" he says wrinkling his nose.

Liam and Zayn chuckle as they come into the lounge.

"Well I don't know if you are going to like this one either but we have to talk" I tell him seriously.

"Okay" he says and starts playing with the sleeves of my jumper. He is facing me straddling me.

"We are going to put you in hiding for a while" I start just to see his reaction.

"Hiding?" He questions, looking me in the eyes.

"Yeah, in a place Stinger won't find you" Liam says.

"Oh....okay" he says cautiously.

"Why would he find me? What's happened?" He asks confused.

"Another body washed up, it was Noah's cousin, they are trying to bring Noah and Jaxson out of hiding. We think you could be a target if they don't come out" Zayn says.

"Is Noah okay?" Louis asks.

"Yeah, we are taking you to be with him, until this is sorted out" I tell him.

"Will you, will you come with me?" He asks so innocently.

"I'm sorry little one I can't, it would put you in even more danger" I tell him stroking his cheek.

"How long will I be gone?" He asks worriedly.

"We don't know baby, hopefully only a few weeks" I tell him.

He nods and then leans to hug me tightly, burying his head in my chest.

"I love you, I'm going to miss you" he tells me sniffling.

"I'll miss you like you wouldn't believe baby, I promise you we are doing everything we can to catch Stinger" I tell him.

He nods and snuggles closer, I don't want to let him go again but this is what's best for him and I will do everything I can to keep Louis safe.