I'm Broken but I'm fine

Part 17

"When was the last time you ate kiddo" Zayn asks as he walks into the room.

I sigh.

"And slept, when did you last have a decent sleep?" Liam says as he hands me a water and some pain pills.

I take them and lean back against Harry.

"I ate toast last night, I think... I don't know, I don't care Z and I haven't slept in three weeks....every time I close my eyes, it's all there, I have nightmares every single time I fall asleep" I whisper.

Harry's grip on me tightens. Zayn sighs.

"I'll make you some food babes" Zayn tells me, not letting me respond as he walks out of the room. Liam and Niall follow to help him.

"Baby, I didn't know how bad this was. I'm so sorry Louis, after you eat something you can sleep. I'm not going anywhere, I'll take care of you and keep you safe" Harry tells me.

"I'm too scared to shut my eyes" I tell him.

"I know, but I won't leave your side I promise" he reassures me.

I nod, I trust Harry.

Zayn comes back with a bowl of fruit and I thank him. I eat but it's a numb feeling, something I'm doing because I have to, I taste nothing but I finish most of the bowl. The boys praise me and I snuggle down on Harry.

"Sleep little one, I'll be here when you wake" Harry whispers to me and before I know it I'm out like a light, safe in the arms I've craved for so long.

HARRYS POV

"This is bad H, he looks worse than when he showed up last time" Niall says when Louis is fast asleep.

"I know, I don't know what to do. If I call mum and tell her he is here, they will want him home. The least I can do is let him have a good sleep before I call them" I tell Niall.

"I dunno H, just call them. As much as I don't agree with what they are doing, I still think it's unfair to let them worry" Liam says.

I sigh, I know he is right.

"Yeah I know, grab me the phone Li?" I ask, I'm dreading this call.

"See if you can get them to at least agree to let him stay the night" Zayn says.

I nod and sigh as I dial mums number. I look down at Louis sleeping peacefully, his cheekbones are sunken in and he is thin and pale. I card my hands through his hair just happy to have him back in my arms.

My mum picks up on the third ring.

"Harry?" She sounds hopeful.

"Yeah it's me" I reply.

"Have you heard anything?" She asks.

"Yeah, he was on our doorstep when I got home, he was beaten up at school again and he came here..to us, where he is safe"

"What? How did he even get there? My god what was he thinking" my mum says angrily.

"He caught the train and I'm pretty sure he was thinking that he wants to be with me because we love each other and he feels safe and protected when he is with me and the boys, he feels loved" I say frustratingly.

"We love him Harry, he knows that. We have been here for him and we will always keep him safe" my mum spits at me.

"Mum I know you love him and you provide for him but I'm what he needs right now, I'm the one who can protect him and help him recover. Have you seen what he looks like recently? He is thinner than when he first came to us, he looks like he hasn't eaten a thing since he left. Did you know he isn't sleeping, like at all! He has been keeping himself awake for the last three weeks mum. How is that healthy, how is that what he needs?" I finish my chest heaving.