I'm Broken but I'm fine

Part 16

Louis doesn't reply and my heart sinks.

"Louis William, this has got to stop. Your mother and I are sick and tired of this attitude of yours. Grow up and stop acting like a petulant child. Talk to Harry before I ban you from seeing him again" my mum yells.

We are all stunned, Louis doesn't need to be yelled at like this, he deserves better than this. My chests aches for him and I for the first time in years, feel like crying. I'm brought out of my thoughts by Louis angelic gorgeous voice and it sends goosebumps all over my body.

"Hello" he says quietly, he sounds tired.

"Hey Angel" I say back.

"Hi" he replies again.

The boys all chime in then, saying their hellos

"Hi" Louis says back.

"We miss you kid" Zayn tells him.

Louis sighs on the other end.

"I.....I miss you guys too" he says and I can tell he is on the verge of tears.

"So mum tells me you haven't really been eating much and haven't left your room, are you okay Lou?" I ask.

Louis sighs and we can hear him breathing heavily on the other end.

"No Harry I'm not okay....... I don't even know why I'm here, I just get yelled at, I'm alone all day and most nights, when mum and Anne work. I'm too scared to leave the house in case I'm shot dead and I have no desire to eat. I don't want a lecture right now, I'm sorry....I just want to be left alone" he says brokenly to me.

"Baby I'm so sorry" I tell him.

"Louis, so you're left at home alone all day?" Zayn asks worriedly.

"Yeah, like usual and nights if they work nights and sleep all day" Louis responds tiredly.

"You shouldn't be left alone, I'm trying my hardest to get you a guard, but Doncaster aren't being very cooperative." Zayn finishes.

"Don't bother uncle Z, school starts in two weeks and a guard will just ad one more thing to the shit pile of reasons why I'll get beaten up" Louis says.

"Louis, Harry and I have spoken to the school, those boys have been moved from your classes and aren't allowed near you, if they do come near you they will be having a visit from Harry and the police" Andy tells Louis.

"Okay" is all Louis says.

"I'm coming down in three weeks to see you Louis okay. Three weeks and I'll be there" I tell him.

I hear sniffling on the other end of the phone, Niall has his own tears in his eyes listening to Louis, Liam has is head in his hands, Zayn looks like he is about to loose his shit and throw the phone across the room and Andy just looks worried.

"Mum.....keeps telling me I'm too attached to you and the boys, she told me I need to grow up and deal with my life myself, that I'm selfish for self harming. That you will probably get board of me cause I'm only 17. That I need to distance myself from you because I shouldn't rely on you......I can't do this anymore Harry, it's too hard" he says brokenly.

"Don't you listen to them Louis, don't you dare push me away" I tell him.

"You will leave me again Haz and I can't deal with it now, what happens when it's a few years down the track and I'm even more in love with you, if that's even possible, I can't" he says.

"I love you Louis, I'm here, I will always be here I promised you that and I don't go back on my promises. Mum and Jay have no idea what they are talking about" I tell him angrily.

"My chest hurts so bad Harry, I feel so alone and I hate it, I don't want this, but no one listens" Louis yells upset.

"We are listening kid, we are and we will try and sort this out. I want you to remember you are stronger than those bad thoughts Lou, you can do this and we are here. I know it's hard, but I need you to promise me that you will try to stay away from the blade. For us Louis please" Andy speaks to Louis, I see him wipe a stray tear off his cheek.

"I can't, I just can't" Louis sobs.

"You can, yes you can" Niall tells him.

"Promise, just try for us Louis please" Zayn begs him.

"We know you can do it kid, we believe you can do it" Liam tells him.

"I have to go" Louis responds.

"We love you Louis" the boys all say.

"Bye Little one" I tell him

Then there is a click, Louis has ended the call.

We sit in silence for ages, just thinking, this is fucked. Completely shit. Zayn throws a couch cushion and heads up to his room. Liam goes after him.

"Don't give up on him H, he needs you now more than ever, just show him you won't give up" Andy says to me.

"I will, I'm not letting him go ever again" I say,

I get up and head to the shower. I'm determined to show Louis I'm not leaving him, that he can trust and rely on me"