I'm Broken but I'm fine

Part 16

It's Sunday night and Liam and Zayn have just gotten home from work. We all decide to give Louis a call together and gather on the couch and put the phone on speaker. It goes straight to message bank when I call his mobile, I call mum and Jay on the house phone and mum picks up.

"Hey mum" I say.

I'm still upset at mum and Jay and I haven't really been talking to them. I think they are being really selfish and unfair. I don't think they have Louis best interests at heart.

"Hey Love, how are you?" She says sounding tired.

"Okay, how....how's Louis doing?" I ask.

"Um, yeah great. He is doing great" she says. I know she is lying.

"Mum" I say sternly.

She sighs.

"He hasn't come out of his room much in the last week, he's not talking to us Harry. He's not eating much again and I've.....I've heard him at night, I think he is having nightmares but he won't talk about it and he won't let me comfort him" she tells me defeated.

"Shit, mum, he needs to come back here" I say angrily.

"I.....Harry, but what happens when you decide you've had enough, that your board of a 17 year old? How will he cope then. He is back at school on two weeks and then what? He has to come home then anyway. He needs to cope without you" she tells me.

I'm gobsmacked, I can't believe she suggested I would get board of Louis, I'm so angry right now. I clench my teeth and take a deep breath before I say something I will regret.

"Put Louis on the phone" I tell her.

She sighs and I hear shuffling, the boys look at me sympathetically. They know me, they know this is all bullshit.

We can hear my mum walking and then we hear yelling, Jays voice echoing through the phone.

"Just eat a god dam meal Louis" she screams at him.

"I'm not hungry" Louis says back timidly.

"You are being so selfish Louis, how do you think this is making your mother and I feel huh?" Jay yells.

Louis is silent.

"You are on drugs again aren't you? Do I have to go snooping around your room again, is that what I have to do Louis" she yells angrily.

"It's not like you believe what I say anyway, why should I even bother defending myself" Louis yells back.

He sounds so broken and his voice cracks.

"Why would I believe anything that comes out of your mouth, all you do is lie. I bet you have been using the blade again,I found new razors in your room Louis, we aren't stupid" Jay says.

My breath hitches and the boys and I all look at each other worriedly. This is not good. My heart aches for Louis.

"What do you care anyway" Louis spits back.

"You are just so god dam selfish Louis and I don't know what to do anymore, your killing yourself and why? Because you can't see Harry anymore? Because he walked out of your life five years ago? Don't you see how stupid you are being? Don't you see that you need to be here, without him, you need to learn to deal with this yourself Louis" Jay tells him firmly.

We then hear footsteps and Anne and Jay talking quietly, Louis must have left the room. We hear more shuffling and then my mum talking to Louis on the other end.

"Louis" she calls.

There is no response.

"Louis, sweetheart Harry is on the phone he wants to talk to you" she says.