I'm Broken but I'm fine

Untitled Part 11

I look towards Harry and he is looking at me with such love and warmth and my chest feels on fire.

"I'm scared Haz" I say looking at him straight in the eyes.

"Why baby" Harry says swiping his thumb over my cheek.

"I'm scared of letting myself love you.....I'm scared of stuffing up and I'm so so scared of loosing you....again" I say as a tear runs down my cheek.

Harry is quick to swipe it away.

"I'm so sorry sweetheart, God you have no idea. I will never, ever leave you again Louis. I will never let you down again. I'm here I will keep you safe and I will love you and when you can't love yourself I'll love you more. Nothing you could ever do will send me away again Louis nothing. I love you and I will tell you that every single day baby" Harry says and I see the glint of tears in his eyes.

"Harry" I say shakily.

"Be with me Louis, please.....be with me" Harry whispers and then his soft beautiful lips are on mine, his hands cupping my face as our lips move in sync.

I respond eagerly when he tries to open my mouth with his tongue, the kiss becomes heated and I whine into Harry's mouth.

"Baby" he whispers and it sends tingles down my spine, and my length thickens in my pants. Harry lays me down gently, our breakfast long forgotten.

Harry hovers over me careful of my wrists.

"You are so beautiful" he tells me and his eyes tell me everything I want to know. That he truly believes it and he truly does love me.

"I......I love you Harry......I always have I just did t know how much. I didn't realise I was actually in love with you. That's why it hurt so much when you left....because I'm in love with you Haz" I tell him.

He beams his gorgeous dimples at me.

"You don't understand what that means to me. You make me so happy" Harry says.

He is back to kissing me, when we pull away I chuckle.

"I didn't even know you were gay Harry" I say smiling.

"Bi baby, but I've never been so attracted to someone in my life as I am you" he says smiling.

I laugh at that comment a genuine laugh at Harry's cheesiness,

"Don't ever keep that sound hidden away you are absolutely stunning when you laugh Louis" Harry says seriously.

I smile up at Harry through my long lashes.

"Your turning into a sap Haz" I tell him smiling slightly.

"As I've been told......only for you though baby, only ever for you" he tells me smirking.

That does something to me and sends butterfly's to my stomach.

"Lou, I don't want to push you and the last thing I want to do is make you uncomfortable but I.......can I touch you....I want to touch you" Harry says softly.

"Yes.....Harry touch me please" I whisper.

Harry goes back to kissing me and he gently runs his hand up and down the side of my stomach, I reach my hands carefully behind his head and tug on his curls. Harry breaks the kiss and slowly lifts my shirt over my head, he can't get it all the way off because of my drip. He goes back to kissing me and he runs his hands all over my body causing me to shudder.

"I want to explore every inch of you" Harry tells me, he then attaches his lips to my neck and kisses softly.

He slowly makes his way down my body, taking his time to kiss me sensually, every touch to my body is like fire to my skin. His lips are so soft and I want more. My body is tired though and I'm getting worked up and it's exhausting me but I don't want Harry to stop. When he reaches the top of my sweatpants he stop, lingering his lips over my stomach, his hot breath raising goosebumps on my skin. I buck my hips up and Harry smirks at me. He gently brings them back down to the mattress.