I'm Broken but I'm fine

Untitled Part 11

"That's it" he tells me, I notices he is gently caressing my wrists as he is talking to me.

"Great job Louis, you're doing so well" he tells me.

"Why does it hurt so bad Andy?" I whisper.

Andy sighs.

"Because you have a kind heart Louis, and because you think you deserve to be hurt, we are going to show you that you don't" He tells me.

Harry then comes back into the room before I can respond.

"Is everything okay?" He asks smiling.

"Yeah, yeah, it's all good" I say wiping my tears away.

"Louis just made a really big step H, you would be really proud of him" Andy says and I blush.

"Yeah?, Lou that's amazing. Well done" Harry says beaming.

I smile slightly.

"I'm tired, can I go back to sleep now?" I ask shyly.

"After you eat something you sure can" Harry says.

I didn't notice but Harry has a tray of food in his hands. I notice pancakes and scrambled eggs as well as fruit and yogurt.

"But I'm not"

"Hungry" Harry and Andy say.

I blush again.

"We know Louis, but I think you could manage at least one pancake don't you?" Andy says.

I sigh.

"I guess so" I say.

"Great" Harry says.

He walks into the room and places the tray on the nightstand Andy stands up and goes to leave the room.

"I'll be downstairs, Niall and I are going on a date" Andy says smiling.

I smile towards him.

"Have fun, don't do anything I wouldn't do" Harry says cheekily.

"Mmmmm don't know if that's a good thing H" Andy says laughing as he leaves the room.

Harry laughs and turns his attention back to me.

"I'm really proud of you Lou" he tells me.

"Thanks Harry" I say shyly.

"Now what would you like to eat? Pancakes? We need to fatten you up a bit" Harry says.

I sigh.

"I'm not,not eating on purpose Haz" I say quietly. "I really am not hungry" I say.

Harry looks at me and reaches out to cup my cheek.

"I know baby but I don't think you realise how small you are Lou. When Andy and I undressed you last night.....we were shocked you have gotten so tiny kid and even if it's not on purpose it needs to stop. It's getting dangerous" Harry tells me.

"I......I'm not that tiny" I say, the only thing I can think of.

"Louis, we had to roll your sweats over three times before they would stay up" Harry states.

I feel my self loathing coming back, I feel useless again......I'm not good enough again....

"Louis, it's okay I'm not upset no one is upset at you okay" Harry says.

"But I keep stuffing up" I say.

"Oh Lou, no you don't that's not you stuffing up. Baby I'm just worried I want you healthy and I want you safe" Harry says to me.