I'm Broken but I'm fine

Part 10

"No, why should I, you don't care, you hate me....let me go I hate you. I'm leaving and you can't stop me" I yell.

"It's okay Lou, everything will be okay" he tells me.

I'm hyperventilating and struggling in Harry's grip, I manage to get free and I bolt to the box and grab it, I manage to dodge Niall and Zayn when they try and stop me. I race to my room and lock the door and go straight to the bathroom and lock that too. I fall to the ground not being able to catch my breath. I quickly remove my bandage and my bracelets as I hear a pounding on the bathroom door. I comprehend that the boys have gotten through the bedroom door lock and will soon get through the bathroom lock too. I'm so upset and panicking so much I just bring the blade to my wrists and cut, I don't know how deep or how many times i cut but I don't stop. There are tears and my chest is heaving. I hear the door open and someone in front of me but I can't make sense of anything. I hope I've cut to deep and I fall into a permanent sleep.

HARRYS POV.

I race behind Louis but I'm not quick enough, he makes it to the bedroom and shuts and locks the door before I can get there. Andy and the boys are behind me and Andy scoots me over to start working on the lock.

"Fuck, what if he....what if he does something" Niall asks.

"We are right here Niall, I need everyone to relax okay. I know we are all worried,but I'm here I won't let anything happen to him. We need to stay calm for Louis sake please guys" Andy pleads with us.

We all nod and relax a little when Andy clicks the lock open. We enter the room. Louis is not there. We see the bathroom door shut and race over, of course it's locked too. Andy again starts to work on the lock, he talks to Louis in the process.

"Louis buddy, can you open the door?" He asks calmly.

We can hear Louis crying and his irregular breathing from this side of the door. I need to get in there.

"It's okay Louis, you're okay. We're coming" I say to him.

Andy nods at me letting me know I'm doing the right thing and to keep talking.

"Louis, I need you to listen to me and my voice and calm down. No one is going to hurt you, you are safe with us Lou" I tell him.

We manage to get the door open and race Into the bathroom, we are met with a shaking and uncontrollably upset Louis, he is severely hyperventilating and there is blood everywhere. His wrists have been cut and the blood is all over him and the floor.

"Shit" Andy says and that gets us all panicking.

"Niall, I need my bag from downstairs, Zayn, I want a bowl of warm water and Liam I need new clothes for Louis." Andy instructs.

The boys nod and get to their specific jobs. Andy looks at me.

"Haz, I need your help" he tells me.

We both kneel in front of Louis.

"Louis, buddy, look at me" Andy tells him gently.

Louis somehow hears Andy and listens, he raises his gaze to Andy.

"That's it, good boy...I need to see your hands Louis, I need to stop the bleeding" Andy says.

I know this is bad, the blood just keeps coming and coming. Louis shakes his head furiously at Andy, that's when I step in. I get behind Louis and sit down behind him, I bring his shaking form into my chest and lean him against me. He doesn't flinch but his breathing picks up even more.

"Shhhhhhhh, it's me Lou, it's Harry, you're okay. Everything is fine I'm here, I'm right here baby" I say to him.

His sobs start again and it's then I realise he is still holding the blade in his hand. He goes to swipe it over his wrist again but Andy reaches out and gently stops him. He takes the blade out of Louis hand and puts it on the sink. He then Gently takes Louis hands in his.