I'm Broken but I'm fine

Part 6

I roll my eyes at him but keep the bottle of water Liam gives me.

"I mean it or I'll come put the drip back in, you are still sick" Andy tells me.

"I'm not sick!! I'm" I start

"FINE" all the boys say at the same time before I get the chance.

I blush and hide against Zayn's chest.

"We know Lou" Harry says smiling.

The boys all chuckle.

I sigh and rest my head against Zayn again. I see Harry staring at us and Zayn wink at him and smirk. Harry flips him the bird and I can't help but think he is upset at me. I need to get away for a while, just clear my head. I haven't left the house since I got here, the urge to cut is getting to me today. I've confessed to Andy and Harry and my thoughts are starting to get the better of me again, I don't want to cut with Andy in the house though. I suddenly get up off the couch and head to my room. I see the confusion in the boys faces. I change in my skinny black jeans and navy blue hoody, I put my black vans on and grab my wallet and skateboard. I feel like shit but I know I will feel worse and do something I will possibly regret if I stay. I just need some space, to think for awhile. I make sure to grab my pack of cigarettes I stashed in my backpack and hide them in my jeans pocket. I walk back downstairs and the guys are all setting up a game of poker, with snacks and beer. I go to slip out without them noticing, but I'm caught by Niall.

"And where do you think you're going?" He scolds me loud enough that everyone hears.

I turn around slowly to face the boys.

"I just need to get out for a while, I'm just going for a skate" I tell them.

"Like hell you are, you're still running a fever and I'm not letting you go out by yourself" Harry stands with his hands on his hips, full of authority.

"Harry is right Lou, I wouldn't advise going out while you're sick, I literally just took the drip out" Andy says.

I roll my eyes at them, I need to get away now I feel really claustrophobic and trapped. I don't respond and instead make a beeline for the door.

"LOUIS!" Harry booms.

It makes me stop in my tracks, he has never raised his voice at me before, ever. I turn around slowly to face him.

"Oh no cop Harry is about to make an appearance" Niall sing songs and gets a glare from Harry.

I know what Niall means though, Harry is so intimidating right now. It's actually scary, he seems so mad.

"I have said no, I don't want you leaving the apartment. You don't even know your way around London" Harry says forcefully.

That's true I don't know my way around but I'm sure it's not that hard to navigate, I have google if I get lost.

"I'm sure I can figure it out" I say and turn around to walk out again.

"I know every cop in this city Louis, walk out that door and I will have every single one of them out there looking for you" he states full of authority.

I turn around and look him in the eye.

"No you won't" I say and I'm out the door.

I hear my name being called and Zayn running after me but the lift closes before he gets there. When I reach the lobby, I exit onto the street and I start to skate, I need to just be alone for a while, hopefully I will come across a skate bowl sooner or later. I'm actually not sure what Harry will do, whether he will just let me go or come and look for me. I'm fairly certain he doesn't care enough to follow through on his threat of calling the cops. I won't go too far as I am still feeling under the weather and can feel that I have a temperature, my limbs are still tired and I'm not stupid enough to go too far alone.