I'm Broken but I'm fine

Part 4

We make our way over to the bed and I'm relieved when I see Louis chest rising and falling,

Andy reaches out and touches his forehead like he is checking for a fever.

"He is burning up" Andy says concerned.

"What? You mean he is sick?" I ask.

"Looks that way" Andy says.

He starts gathering together some things in his medical bag when Louis starts stirring awake on the bed.

LOUIS POV

I've been flitting in and out of sleep for the last three days, my head is pounding and I feel like I'm coming down with the flu. I have no energy and I just want to sleep, I've managed to cut twice more though. My anger at the boys disappeared after the first night I locked them out of my room, now I'm just staying in my room because I want to be out of their way and because I don't actually feel very well. I have kept my music on loud though just to annoy them. My head feels like it's going to explode now though and I've been sweating but so cold at the same time, my whole body just aches.

I vaguely hear voices and register the music has been turned off. I groan at the fact my body is just exhausted and I want the voices to stop so I can go back to sleep.

"Louis, bud can you hear me?" A voice asks me, I don't register who it is.

I scrunch my face up and roll over on my side.

"M tired" I croak out, I haven't used my voice in three days.

"I know you are buddy, but I need you to wake up for me so I can check you over"

I register the voice now....it's Andy's, shit.....check me over? I can't let him check me over, he will definitely find the bruises and my cuts and that's one thing I just can't let happen. I know I cannot deal with the fallout of Harry and the boys discovering my cuts. I start to panic as he gently grabs my arm and goes to lift up my sleeve.

"No......I'm fine leave me alone" I panic, pull my arm away and sit up on the bed.

I find five sets of worried eyes on me and I panic that they saw something.

"Shhhhh, it's okay Lou just relax" Harry says and he is on the bed next to me on my right, Andy is kneeling down on the left hand side of the bed and Niall, Liam and Zayn stand at the foot of the bed.

"Please don't touch me" I say quietly.

"Louis, no one is going to hurt you...I promise you. You have a high fever and Andy really needs to check if you are okay" Harry says.

I shake my head no and bolt to get out of the room, as I stand up though I'm hit with a terrible dizzy spell and I fall to the ground, I'm caught by Andy though before I make impact.

"Hey, hey, hey, shhhhhh Louis it's okay. I won't hurt you buddy".

"Let me go, I'm fine I don't want your help" I yell as I try my hardest to break free of his grasp.

"Listen, if you don't relax, I'm going to have no choice but to take you into the hospital, your fever is extremely high and you appear to be very dehydrated. I'm happy to sort it out here, but if you aren't going to cooperate I'll have no choice to take you in" Andy says calmly to me.

"You can't do that, I won't let you" I say.

He can't make me do anything I don't want to do.

"Actually I can, Harry is your legal guardian for the time being and what he says goes" Andy says.

I stop struggling, I can't believe this I'm so angry.

"That's it, now I promise I won't hurt you, just come sit down on the bed and I will take a look at you" Andy says.

My body is too exhausted to continue the fight so I allow myself to be led to the bed. Harry pulls me into his arms and I don't protest, I feel like shit and his smell and arms are so comforting. I am lying sideways across Harry's legs and I snuggle my head in his shoulder.

Andy goes to grab my wrist and I flinch and pull it straight out of his grip, wincing as I do but I hope no one notices.

"Louis" Zayn says warning me.

"Please just don't touch me.... my arms just don't touch me please" I say as tears sting my eyes.

"Okay, okay.....look I'm just going to check your temperature first okay" Andy says calmly, trying to gain my trust I think.

I look him in the eyes and I see he looks kind and trusting, Harry and the boys trust him and I slowly give in and nod my head. I receive a beaming smile from Andy in return.

"Good boy" Harry says from above me.

Andy takes my temperature and sighs.

"39.9, it's really high" he says.

He puts the thermometer back in his bag and turns back to me.

"Louis, do you feel sick at all? Like sore throat or cough or anything?" He asks me.

I shake my head no I don't have a sore throat or a cough.

"Just my head....it's pounding and I'm so tired" I tell him.

"Okay, it's hopefully just a virus but I'm going to need to draw some blood and put a drip in to rehydrate you, that should help with your head okay" Andy tells me.

"Okay" I say.

Andy sets to work and draws my blood first, when he goes to put the drip in my arm though I flinch away again.

"I'm going to have to hold your hand for a few minutes Louis, just so I can put the drip in. It's going to go in the top of your hand and then I won't have to touch you anymore okay bud" he says.

I close my eyes to blink back the tears.

"It's okay Lou, I'm right here" Harry tells me.

I slightly relax and let Andy grab my hand, he is gentle and I hardly notice the needle going in. All I keep thinking in my head is please don't find my cuts, please don't see my cuts. It's over before I know it though and Andy is placing my hand back on my lap.

"All done" he smiles.

"Now I'm just going to give you some medicine that will bring your temp down and you can go back to sleep okay" he says and I nod.

After Andy is done Harry places me back in bed.

"Can......can you stay?" I whisper quietly to him.

He is so comfortable and when Harry is around the voices seem to go away.

"Sure kiddo, I'm just going to see Andy out and I'll be right back okay" he says.

I nod my head and roll over as best I can, I'm asleep again before they are out the door.

HARRYS POV

I walk Andy to the front door.

"Thanks for that Andy, really appreciate it" I tell him.

"Of course H, I do have a few concerns though" he tells me.

I furrow my eyebrows at him

"Is Louis okay? I thought you said it was just a virus?" I say suddenly worried again.

"I'm sure it is, when I get the tests back I will be able to tell you for sure" he says.

"Then what are your concerns?" I ask him.

"He doesn't like being touched, he didn't like me touching his arms, particularly his wrists......have you noticed, he wears bracelets, lots of them?" He questions.

"Well yeah I just assumed they were part of the whole look he was going for" I say.

"Well it could be but it could also mean a number of other things, just don't worry, leave it with me I will get back to you as soon as I can with the results okay" Andy tells me.

I don't understand what Andy is telling me but I decide to trust him and let it be, I nod my head and we say our goodbyes. I walk back up to Louis room and slide into bed next to him, I bring him into my arms and hold him tight. I fall asleep and hope Louis feels much better in the morning, I wake up every hour of the night checking his temperature and making sure he is okay.