I'm Broken but I'm fine

Part 4

"Do you get nightmares a lot?" He asks me.

I nod my head at his question, I should at least warn him for when it happens again.

"Do our mums know" Harry asks.

"No" I whisper. "Please, don't say anything" I ask quietly.

Harry sighs and pulls me into him and I melt in his embrace.

"You have my word, but please Louis, just know I'm here for you okay" Harry says and I nod into his chest.

"Come on, come play some FIFA with us" Harry says and leads me over to the couch. The boys act like they weren't watching our conversation but I know they were. Niall has a huge grin on his face while Zayn is smirking badly.

"Here Lou, want to play?" Zayn asks.

"Um no....I'll just watch for a while" I say quietly.

Zayn nods and the boys get to playing the game. Harry makes sure I sit down next to him on the couch. I curl my legs under me and start munching on my apple. When I'm finished my apple I go to put it in the rubbish and when I turn around there is a knock at the door. I freeze and look at the boys slightly scared.

"It's okay Lou, it's just a friend of ours" Liam says kindly as he goes to answer the door. The boys all stand up ready to greet this friend of there's.

I slip behind Harry, and hide out of the way. When Liam comes back in the room a very tall handsome guy is trailing behind, he has brown eyes and hair and gives off a very comforting, easygoing vibe. I don't let my guard down though, he will probably think I'm a freak and hate me.

"Louis, we would like you to meet our friend, this is Andy" Liam says and my breathing stops and i freeze, eyes going wide. I can feel the colour drain from my face.

"It's really nice to finally meet you Louis, The boys have told me so much about you" he says kindly looking at me.

Half my body is hidden behind Harry, the boys have invited Andy over probably because of last night. It's true, they do think I'm crazy and need a shrink. I don't want to be here anymore, they are traitors. I told them I didn't want to talk about anything, that I didn't need to, that I was fine. I blink up at Andy and see him smiling widely at me. I think I'm going to be sick.

"I'm going to throw up" I say and I rush forward and just make the sink in the kitchen before I'm puking up the apple I just ate.

I feel Zayn behind me rubbing my back.

"Its okay Lou" he says to me.

When I'm done, I'm so embarrassed. Harry is by my side as well making sure I'm okay. I can see them all watching me with worried expressions, I expect to see Andy grossed out, maybe even laughing at me or at least disgusted. What I didn't expect was the extremely worried look and furrowed eyebrows he has on his face. Like he knows more than he is letting on. He looks like he is studying me and I hate it. I run then, upstairs to my bedroom and I close the door behind me and lock it.

Not even a second later there is banging on my door.

"Louis, open the door please" it's Harry.

"Leave me alone Harry" I spit at him.

"I can't do that Louis, now open the door kiddo" he asks again his tone shifting from understanding to slightly upset.

"No!, I told you I don't want to meet Andy but you invited him over anyway, I'm not a freak I don't need a doctor Harry I'm not coming out!!" I yell at Harry.

My chest is heaving as I try to calm myself down.

"Louis, you don't have to talk to Andy we just wanted you two to meet that's all" Harry says.