I'm Broken but I'm fine

Part 2

"Hey, Lou. It's okay....what's the matter?" Harry asks as he stops at the bottom of the stairs and turns to face me.

"Nnnnnnnothing, I just. I'm not used to lots of people I guess I dunno, people don't....." I start to say but I trail off not wanting to reveal anything to Harry.

"People don't what bud?" He asks kindly.

He looks me straight in the eyes and I feel like he is looking into my soul.

"People, don't usually.....usually like me" I shrug.

Shit Harry and his dam eyes and dimples and these stupid butterflies he gives me. I shouldn't have said that. Harry looks at me confusion written all over his face.

"Well, what's not to like? We all really like you and I know I'm looking forward to us getting to know each other again" Harry says.

I sigh, if only he knew my life. I nod my head and he leads me to the dining table, the smell of food hits me and it actually smells delicious. The boys are all sitting around the dining table, they all have a plate of what looks like stir fry and a beer each. Harry pulls out my chair across from Niall and Zayn and I sit down. Liam is at the head of the table and Harry sits down next to me. There is a huge plate of dinner in front of me and I swallow the lump in my throat, it smells delicious but I really don't feel like eating.

"Would you like a drink Lou?" Liam asks me.

"Sure I'll have a beer thanks" I say without missing a beat.

The table goes silent and they all look at each other.

"Ummmm" Niall starts.

"I was joking, I'll stick with water thanks" I say smiling to myself.

The boys laugh and Harry beams at me, God his dimples.

"You know I was just about to give in and give you one, who can say no to that cute face" Niall laughs.

"I bet you get away with murder at home hey Lou, mum was always a sucker for the cute little pout you always did when you were trying to get your way" Harry says and the boys all smile and chuckle.

"Yeah, I guess....didn't help me getting out of coming here though" I say truthfully.

"You didn't want to come?" Liam asks.

The boys all share looks with each other and I know the theory's as to what's going on with me have already started.

"It's not that....it's just, mum and Anne think there is something wrong and they don't believe me when I tell them I'm fine" I say.

The boys have all started digging into their dinner, I pick up my fork hesitantly and start moving the food around my plate.

"Well, no offence Lou but even we can all tell you're not fine and you've only been here a few hours" Zayn starts and I go to retaliate but he puts his hands up to stop me.

"It's okay that you don't want to talk about it right now bud, we won't make you talk but we know you are not okay and we want you to know it's okay" Zayn finishes.

I can see Harry smile at Zayn across the table I can feel my breathing pick up a little and I feel slightly dizzy. They know something is going on and I bet they already pity me, I haven't been here a day and my guard is already faltering, they can see through it.

"I....I said I'm fine" I say back quietly playing with my food.

"Do you not like stir fry?" Niall asks, no accusation in his voice.

"Yeah, I'm just not hungry" I say back.

"Louis....bud, what have you eaten today?" Liam asks me.