Shawn Mendes imagines

I love you both so much

Y/N's POV

I was in my car driving the farthest I could from my place. I had had another fight with Shawn but this time it was different. It went to far. Tears were rolling down my cheeks my whole body was shaking and I couldn't stop sobbing.

My head was filled with his words. "How could do this to me I'm not ready to have a fucking a child especially with you. Omg I hate you so much you're such bitch. I'm sure this is a lie so you can have all my money it's that isn't it. That's all you care about anyway. You never loved me"  He had yelled at me.

All of this happened because I was pregnant with his child. And I felt guilty for this. I was gonna ruin his career. He didn't deserve that. Yet this behavior didn't look like Shawn at all. But now I was alone pregnant and I didn't want to keep doing this. I loved Shawn with all of me. He was my whole world my whole life. I couldn't live without him and caring his child made the whole situation even worse.

How was I supposed to survive without him. I couldn't. He probably hated me anyway. So maybe it was better for me to end my life. If I wanted to do it I had to be honest with Shawn one last time.

I headed to the cliff. Once I had arrived I took my phone out off my pocket and dialed Shawn's number. I knew he wouldn't answer since we just had a fight. Like I thought he didn't answer and I left him a message on his voicemail. "Hi it's probably the last time you're gonna hear me but" I stopped myself to take a shaky breath and tried to quiet down my sobs.

"I just wanted to say that I love you so much an you're my whole life and even though we won't have this child I wish we could have been through this together. Just know that you're everything I have and I'll love you forever goodbye Shawn" I said my last words. I sat on the grass and started to remember all the memories Shawn and I had.

We were such a happy couple. We used to never fight but I guess everything was over. I had been sat for a while now and I thought that if I kept thinking about Shawn and I I would never do it so I took a deep breath and walked closer to the edge of the cliff. I looked down and saw the ground. The wind blew my hair away from my face and I was about to jump when I felt strong arms wrapping tightly around my waist and pulling me backwards.

Shawn's POV

When she left I was a total mess I couldn't stop crying. I was so mad at myself. How could I do that. What I said was horrible. I'm a monster. The worst is that I wanted to have a kid with her. I had always wanted. It was one of my dreams. I loved her so freaking much. My anger was growing inside of me. I started to punch and throw everything I could. I kicked her out with our child. I felt so guilty. I needed her in my life.

The truth is I didn't even know why did that it was probably because I was having an awful and stressful day but still it's not something I should have done. Without her my life didn't have sense.

I had stopped crashing things and lay down on my bed. I was looking up at the ceiling trying to calm down but I couldn't. Y/N was the only who could calm me. I had cried so much that I was drifting off to sleep feeling heart broken and pissed off at myself when my phone rang. I didn't answer I didn't have the strength to talk to anyone right now. Yet I looked who called. When I realized that it was Y/N I was so happy and my whole body filled with hope. However I listened to her message and I started to freak out she couldn't end her life not because of me not right now.

I loved her so much she couldn't leave. Once again I found myself crying out of stress and worry. Yet I stood up and took my car keys. I had to save her and our child. I knew where she was. She told me a long time ago that when she was upset she used to go to a cliff near her old house so that where I went. When I arrived the first thing I saw was her car.

I hurried up and got out of mine I ran towards the edge and I found her. She was about to jump but I wrapped my arms around her and pulled her into my chest. I felt relieved when I knew that she was safe. I kissed her forehead and she looked up. Her eyes locked with mine. She seemed so upset and it made me feel even worse to see what I had done to her. I caused that. She nearly killed herself because of me.

I hold her as tight as I could scared of letting her go. "I'm so sorry" I mumbled kissing her hair. I sat us down on the cold grass and pulled her into my lap. "It's okay I understand you don't want me nor this child in your life" She sniffled and tried to get up but I pulled her back. "No no I didn't mean that I'm so freaking sorry darling. You can't even imagine how scared and worried I was when I heard your message and god I'm so sorry I don't deserve you I hurt you." I started to cry and she hugged me. I was caught off guard but I relaxed at her touch.

"Don't be so sorry" she whispered in my ear. I looked in her gorgeous eyes trying to understand but I didn't seem to. "You know I wanna have this child with you I really do. I wanna raise him or her with you. I wanna grow old with you. I love you so much and I'm so dumb for what I've done. And I understand if you don't wanna take me back. But I couldn't let you die with our child." I said still crying. She didn't do anything and her eyes didn't leave mine not even for a second.

I leaned in and rested my forehead on hers. "Please take me back I love you and I can't live without you. Plus I wanna be part of our child's life. Please Princess I love you so much" I whispered begging her. "Okay" she answered her voice was barely audible and she looked so fragile and broken because of me. "Thank you so much darling I promise I'll never do something like that again it was so messed up and I'm so sorry." I looked down and bent down kissing her stomach through the thin fabric of her shirt.

"I'm also gonna take care of you don't worry and I love you so freaking much already" I said and she giggled. Gosh her laugh was music to my ear and to hear her laughter made me smile goofily. I looked up and kissed her passionately. Proving her how much she means to me. "Let's go home princess" I whispered in ear and picked her up. I carried her to my car and decide to leave hers here. I sat her on the passenger side and jogged to the other side.

"You know Shawn I love you so much you can't even imagine" she confessed once I was sat "Y/N I love you even more" I answered pecking her lips. I was so happy that I got her back I wouldn't have stood living without her. And having this child with her is a total blessing.

On our way back home she fell asleep. So I carried her inside of our place and took her upstairs. Our room was messy like it had never been before but I was too tired to clean it now so I decided I'll do it tomorrow. I lay her down and changer her into her pajamas. I kissed her forehead and threw on a pair of sweats as I took off my shirt. I lay down next to her and wrapped my arms around her small waist pulling her into my chest. "Good night princess I love you both so dam much" I said drawing shapes on her stomach before starting to fall asleep